Baby Steps to Changing My Life
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Today I took the first scary steps and I ordered some books about how to start my business and my first goal is to start my business plan this weekend and begin researching recipes and a menu format. Yes, I am scared but SO excited. Last night I was chatting with my manicurist and she owns the company. She is 27. I asked her about when she and her boyfriend bought it and was it scary for her. Her face said it all. She said it was terrifying but as each day passes it gets better and she is still really happy she did it. I was so happy to hear that and it made me feel more confident.
There is a non-profit in Boston that helps culinary businesses get off the ground. You have to submit your business plan and if you get accepted they help you get all set up and permits etc. They even provide a kitchen to work out of in the beginning. That is going to be one of my starting points.
This past 2 weeks have been hard on me and I have been starving and feeling horrible. It is the first time in a long time I was scared I might fall off course but I have kept fighting it. After my review Friday I had the strongest desire to go buy a pint of ice cream and wallow. As soon as I thought it I pushed it out of my mind and didn't even consider it. I am proud of that. I am proud that I am living the life I want to live and making healthier choices in the face of adversity. There is no shame in maintenance. Just because I haven't lost weight the last week and a half does not mean I am failing. To get through what I have just gotten through and still be standing is amazing and each day I am going to wake up and tell myself I am valuable and I am worth it and to be strong. To keep fighting. You can do it.