About Yesterday's Blog
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Thanks for the response to my blog yesterday, pals. I had several people encourage me to just celebrate my own successes and be happy with that. I very much do and I very much am. I don't claim the jealousy some suggested might be behind the "compare and despair" function. Instead, for me what's behind "compare and despair" is my struggle with perfectionism. I'm not envious of what my friends have or are accomplishing--on the contrary, I'm thrilled for them. Rather, it stirs for me the anxiety of whether I'm doing enough, being my best, working hard enough, etc. And I, much like many of you, rely on FB as a way to communicate with several people I wouldn't otherwise communicate with and am grateful it's around for that purpose. Central to my journey to lose weight and be my healthiest self has been my willingness to feel and reflect on feelings, to reflect on behaviors and choices that work and don't work for me, and yesterday's blog helped me to acknowledge an emotional pattern that's just not working for me anymore. It's a relief, as always, to see I'm very much not alone.