I Bought A Notebook, But Didn't Quite Know Why!
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Are you ready? I have never written a blog of this kind. I'm a "quiet Sparker", lol. I give encouragement to others and occasionally my two cents. Many blogs of reaching goals and overcoming obstacles have given me incentive. Maybe my blog can help someone too. Today I wanted to share with the Spark community a little of my background with fitness and nutrition. I'm excited, I made a decision to finally get certified for personal training and fitness nutrition. I registered on line yesterday. This is a huge step for me (you'll read why). I am fortunate to able to do this as a hopeful part-time business. The thought of income is great. The real motivation is that I will finally be following through with a dream. It's to prove to myself that I can do something that I feel I was meant to do for a long time. I've helped so many friends (and back when I worked) co-workers with exercise routines and menu planning. Why not get certified for it? I would be happy with just one person asking for my help to reach their goals. When did I fall in love with working out? It started over 25 years ago. I joined a gym, well, three. Started working with personal trainers who had competed in shows. I read everything I could on strength training and exercise ..... I laugh thinking about the reading resources back then and how there were few if any magazines geared toward women's fitness. Fitness category was just getting popular, most reading was on bodybuilding. So I read the hardcore stuff, Muscle, Muscle and Fitness and Flex (more male related advice) Cory Everson and Rachel McLish were my female role models. I had a darn good body, the kind people at the gym would walk by with a sales consultant, look at me and say "can you make me look like her if I join". My muscles responded quickly to lifting weights. The gym was my second home. I was what we used to call a gym rat. Do they still use that term? So I wanted to become a personal trainer back then; but didn't for one reason or another. Mostly because I didn't believe in myself. I never felt confident in my choices in life. I wasn't good enough; hence the eating disorder. As far as the nutrition knowledge I've acquired, I learned the hard way. One by struggling with anorexia and having to work with many nutritionists. Two, being on every commercial diet, eating plan, pills, reading every book on weight loss, etc. when I didn't even need to lose weight. Right after leaving my second hospitalization for my eating disorder, I took a job as a diet consultant for Diet Center (popular right before Nutrisystem came out) It was like putting a recovering alcoholic in a bartending job. Let's just say it wasn't a healthy choice. I do look back and think it's ironic that 20 years ago Diet Center's weight loss plan was based on the glycemic index and basically low carb, high protein. Not the norm at that time. Clients were successful, but it was a very restricted diet on the first phase and not healthy or realistic for most clients. Of course this type of "diet" was a dream for the still unhealthy me.
A big side note...I am not only a recovering anorexic, but I've battled other obstacles for over 20 years, major depression and anxiety disorder. Vague terms in my opinion, but that's a quick way to write it. So among the therapy and medications and did I mention therapy, lol, for over the years, making this decision to follow an old dream is scary and anxiety producing. The outcome of this venture will help me to see the strength I've gained on the inside as well as the outside and that's worth the world to me.
As far as the eating disorder, I've been doing great for over 12 years and since had a beautiful son at age 41 (5 years ago). My best accomplishment! The minor set back was going to the other extreme and gaining close to 70 pounds during my pregnancy. Not the recommended amount! I gave myself permission to eat whatever I wanted. When would I ever have an excuse to do this again, right? Wrong. So after giving birth, I found out what it was like to have to lose actual body fat weight. First 55 pounds came off relatively fast, then the next 10, finally a year after last 5 gone. My loss was all done the healthy way. No starving and no spending endless hours on cardio equipment. I actually put into practice what I had preached to others for years and it works.
If you've made it this far, thank you so much for putting up with my babbling. I am soooo not a writer! Bottom line is I'm still finding me and it's happening at age 46, but that's okay. I would tell someone else to do it, to follow their dream no matter what age. So I am finally taking my own advice and looking forward to being able to say "I did it".
I think that 3 section notebook had a purpose I just didn't know about until now.