I sound distracted in this blog
Monday, April 04, 2011
So I’ve decided to be happy with remaining between 132 and 134. I seem to only fluctuate between those numbers and have a very easy time maintaining that. I do have stomach issues when it comes to regularity so it’s tough to really tell what is “weight” and what is me not being able to “go”.
I’m becoming more at ease with myself and my choices. I also know I’ll have good weeks and bad weeks. Last week was a bad week, but this coming week will be a good one. If I am interrupted and eat out or have something that wasn’t in the plan, I am okay with that. I’ve decided to start doing more interval training to help me prepare to do some longer distance running in the summer and fall, aiming to hopefully do some races whether it be a 10k or a half marathon. I ate out a decent about last week, A LOT actually so this week we are planning some more meals at home. I’m learning to be okay with life happening to me.
I have good news. I went up 2 pounds. But I went down a pants size. CRAZY right? I danced. YES I danced. I’ve been an 8 since January and really had accepted that I was probably going to be an 8 forever which was fine with me. And I put on a pair of pants that were a 6 that my friend gave me and THEY FIT. So I went shopping with some of my tax returns and grabbed a few 6’s. And I kind of realized this is why I haven’t liked my pants lately. They’ve been hanging off me and I never thought I’d possibly be another size down. And I am. I am a size down even though I ate out all week, I’ve been bingeing considerably and was having trouble controlling my appetite. Because my passion for exercise is stronger. My passion for building my strength and aerobic ability is so strong that it seems to be beating out my food addiction. Some weeks I crave more, some I am better. SO I move forward making better decisions and knowing I don’t want to forever be battling the food addiction. Some day I will be able to control it but for now my passion for exercise is getting me through.
That’s really all for now. I think losing a size changed my thoughts a bit and while I let myself go for a week I want to make sure I am feeding my body properly and am hoping to limit eating out to 1-2 days a week at most. So hopefully I can stick to that.