Friday, April 01, 2011
My experiment with not counting calories has been going okay. I didn't weigh in today because I drank wine last night and from experience weighing in the day after drinking I always end up being like a pound heavier. So I plan to weigh in Sunday. But psychologically and emotionally? Better. Definitely better. I am able to not have as much anxiety when it comes to food and things coming up. I have kind of let myself enjoy a little more this week, and I know it's going to take time to find the balance. Night time snacking is still a problem, and I know I need to up my calories in the afternoon and at dinner especially with carbohydrates because that's what I am CRAVING at night. It's why cereal is such a problem in the house. I had 3 cups of Special K last night AFTER dinner. But it's a work in progress.
I try not to plan as much other than like bringing lunch to work which even then if I am really out of ideas as to what to bring I let myself get lunch out. I still find myself making better choices anyway, I haven’t reverted which I was worried about. It’s more letting myself have the smaller things that I crave. I still get my skinny latte’s but I allow myself to get the little treats that are under 200 calories at Starbucks. At dunkin I continue to get my black iced coffee with one creamer keeping it at about 50 calories. Yesterday we went to Bobby’s Burger Palace and I got a turkey burger and it was SO good and I had no problem taking two big bites then taking the top bun off and ending up not even eating the bottom bun. So I find myself enjoying and finding little ways to help myself along the way. I tracked my calories at the end of yesterday because it was a very off day. We had that for lunch then ended up getting sushi for dinner so I wanted to just see where I was. I did okay, stayed under 2,000 calories and that’s my primary goal. I burn between 700-1000 calories every day so I figure I am golden under or even a tiny bit above 2,000. So psychologically it’s better. I just need to reorganize my meals and such to help with the night time snacking. I just can’t seem to fix it. It’s tough but I am trying to just listen to my body. When I feel hungry I try to have protein filled snacks. Not as much fruit, still eating at least 3 servings but I feel like the protein is more important. It keeps me fuller. And I have had a lot of fun making healthy meals and looking up new recipes and I keep them under 500 calories and as long as it’s there I am enjoying it.
Sorry I ramble. BASICALLY I am doing a lot better since I stopped counting. My anxiety is lower. I still worry in the back of my mind and then try to just go forward and make the best choice that is in front of me. I have come a long way, and will always care about my health and nutrition. I am right now deciding between trying kickboxing or investing in P90X. I love the idea of a shorter more intense strength training session. As long as I keep it fresh I know I will be okay. I love to exercise and I think that is what will get me through the decisions when it comes to food. Food isn’t my enemy I just need to find a good relationship with it.