Do I belong here?
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
This is a blog that has long been on my mind and needed to be written. But maybe I shouldn't be writing it at 2 in the morning. On the other hand, I am up at 2 am because of life's stresses!
So you may wonder why I titled this blog, "Do I belong here?" Well, a number of months ago, I read a blog (or I dreamed I read a blog) about a person on Sparkpeople who was very overweight. She was complaining how people much smaller than her complain about how they have to lose weight. She went on to say how irritated she was because they have no clue how difficult it is to have to lose so much more weight.
So when I struggle, do I have a right to express that? No, I don't have a 100# to lose. I used to have 50# but have lost 20-28 pounds. But I am struggling. I eat unhealthy food. I was down to 153.8, 5 weeks ago, now I am up to close to 160. I am not happy with myself. And yet, I eat foods that will hinder my success. All the while I wonder why am I doing this to myself? Should I just be happy with who I am? But being less will make me healthier, fitter, not so tired.
So I will ask the question again, Do I belong here? Do any of you mind I don't have as much to lose as you and yet I complain and struggle? Thank you Sparkfriends for always encouraging me. I will get my head straight yet.