It's Just See You Later
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I've been on this weird roller coaster of emotions lately i.e. super happy one second and then crying into my pillow the next. It's a mixture of things I guess... schoolwork, post-Graduation plans, my love life (sorry, correction: lack thereof), my weight, finances. I tend to get into serious bouts of depression right before my period but when I resorted to having cake and ice cream for dinner tonight, I realized that I really need to pull myself back together.
I feel like I need to put all of my energy into being consistent (I've been going to the gym for about 2 1/2 months consecutively!
By now I would have skipped out after the first month) and getting my nutrition goals in check so for April, I've decided not to weigh myself
as well as given myself the challenge of not eating sweets and/or fast food for the month.
I know cutting out foods isn't ideal for a healthy (what I consider fruitful and balanced) lifestyle, but I simply cannot allow myself to fall back into the mentality that I need something sweet or unhealthy whenever my emotions decide to go for a ride. It was the mentality that I had throughout my childhood, and it's the reason why my relationship with food at the moment is so destructive. Therefore, April will be about once and for all learning how to cope with my emotions in a healthy way. April will also be about patience and enjoying the journey, prompting my decision to break up
with the scale for a month.
Hopefully, my 10K training (currently in week 6!) and 100 push ups challenge will keep me more than preoccupied.