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Re-evaluating things

Sunday, March 27, 2011

This past week was pretty miserable on the work front. Constant stress and very little relief. Friday morning was supposed to be the big meeting which ended up getting rescheduled to Monday afternoon because my bosses were too busy on Friday. I have spent the weekend questioning if this was just a strategy to get me to book the huge event I have a meeting for on Monday morning and then let me go in the afternoon.
Luckily, an old friend of mine and I got to chat this afternoon and I really respect his opinion both personally and professionally. He confirmed what I have already known but just have not wanted to face. That I can not control my company and sometimes being let go or making a mutual decision to resign is the right decision. Jobs do run their course and we can not control when that happens necessarily. No matter what happens I will be able to find a new job, a better job, one that is more fulfilling and leaves me less stressed.
This past week I was not proud of how I handled the stress. Just because I didn't overeat doesn't mean I handled it in a good way. I basically hardly ate all week and I only worked out once. I was an anxiety ridden mess and if I was not overworking I was at home hiding and sleeping.
Why am I telling all of you this? Well because people keep telling me they admire me and I think part of my journey is being totally honest. Even when we get farther along in this journey we don't always make the right choices but that is ok. It is a constant learning experience and it is what we take away from each of these learning experiences that is the most important thing. I am strong, powerful, beautiful, and a survivor. Nobody is going to bring me back to the insecure miserable person I was a year ago. Whatever path I have to take to finding my bliss will be the right one and I will adapt. Regardless of the how I had to start out.
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  • IMIN2GENES
    I've been there and appreciate your honesty. I hate to hear anyone having to deal with situations like this; but your attitude towards it is great.

    I love this line: "I am strong, powerful, beautiful, and a survivor. Nobody is going to bring me back to the insecure miserable person I was a year ago. Whatever path I have to take to finding my bliss will be the right one and I will adapt." I am sure you will and you'll be better than ever!

    Thinking of you and wishing you a successful resolution!
    Chris
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    3216 days ago
  • SCAZARES39
    emoticon it will all be ok! I hope the job thing works out for the best for YOU! Keep your head up, next week is a new week!
    3218 days ago
  • DRJJ2004
    You and your friend are right on!!! It's all gonna be OK girlfriend!! Hang in there!

    Hugs!
    3219 days ago
  • SPOOKYTHECAT
    Wishing you wellness & resolution, Ashely.

    I hate not knowing what is going to happen, it drives me nutso~ so I hope you have got your answer & know that you will rise to the top, no matter what!

    3219 days ago
  • DIVADOLL73
    Be encouraged Ashley you've come a longgg way we all hit bumps in the road. Your in my thoughts and prayers today....I know what it is to be in a stressful job enviroment, but it gets better pray about your decisions and do what is best for yourself because YOU ARE WORTH IT!! emoticon emoticon
    3219 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/29/2011 12:37:55 PM
  • DIVADOLL73
    Be encouraged Ashley you've come a longgg way we all hit bumps in the road. Your in my thoughts and prayers today....I know what it is to be in a stressful job enviroment, but it gets better pray about your decisions and do what is best for yourself because YOU ARE WORTH IT!! emoticon emoticon
    3219 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/29/2011 12:38:30 PM
  • WORKINGSTIFF
    A big part of going through life is to come to the realization that much of it is beyond our control.

    Just that you are willing to look honestly at your situation and share that honesty with us is big in itself. A lot of people try to avoid such things at all costs.

    Hopefully the situation will right itself. It's like that old saying about 10% of life is what happens to us and the other 90% is how we deal with that 10%.

    Take care!

    3219 days ago
  • DAISYTERRI
    Thinking of you today!
    3219 days ago
  • KATHLOW
    Thanks for your honesty and good luck!
    3219 days ago
  • ZANNACHAN
    I'm sorry that everything is still so stressful for you. I hope something better comes your way--or at least that your current work situation will resolve itself happily!

    "Just because I didn't overeat doesn't mean I handled it in a good way."

    Honesty is a powerful thing. You could have done better, possibly, but think of it this way:

    1) You could have done worse. In addition to the unhealthy things you did this way, you could have binged on food or drink or any number of things.

    2) Maybe understanding what you did that was unhealthy this time (and why) will help you be better prepared to do better next time.

    In any case, you are a strong woman who can and will bounce back from this stronger than ever.
    3220 days ago
  • NANHBH
    Ash,

    Thanks for your honesty. It really helps to see your growth on all aspects of being healthy. Very profound statement - "Just because I didn't overeat doesn't mean I handled it in a good way." You ARE an amazingly beautiful, strong woman! Keep sharing your life examples with us. You are teaching us all about handling life!
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    3220 days ago
  • 4EVERADONEGIRL
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    You have much to be proud of because through all of this you have learned a valuable lesson - that you CAN handle whatever comes your way...maybe not the best way this time around, but now you've learned something from it! :-)

    Good job!
    3220 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    I love your honesty, and I do believe when one door closes, another, better one opens!
    3220 days ago
  • HINDYPATTI
    I respect you not because you are perfect but because you are real. Trusting that when God decides that its time for you to move on, He will have something fabulous waiting for you.
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    3220 days ago
  • SHONNAATCH
    Hope that all is well today, Ashley! So many people admire you, but that doesn't mean you have to perfect and I'm so glad you recognize that. You have made so many positive steps and you will get back to them. Thinking of you!
    3220 days ago
  • CHANGINGELAINE
    Like you I don't eat when I am stressed or too busy. This usually is just as bad as eating too much because my body goes into survival mode.
    I keep thinking of weight loss as a journey, and reading your blogs always confirms that for me.
    Thanks so much for sharing!
    3220 days ago
  • JESSIEJUICE
    Honesty is definitely the best policy! I'm so sorry from what I read it sounded like you really had a whale of a week, but whatever happens know that you deserve nothing but the best treatment. I'm thinking good thoughts for you that this week is better.
    3220 days ago
  • GREENSCRAPCAT
    Today is another day, good luck to you. When I am down and out, I blog hop on SP, this is one of those days. You are always a great motivator.
    3220 days ago
  • MADEMCHE
    Good for you Ash! I hope today is going well.
    3220 days ago
  • PELESJEWEL
    Yep! Let the cards fall where they will! You are magnificent and will find the right path at the right place & right time!
    3220 days ago
  • CTTAGENT
    Sorry to hear about your job plight. Hope everything goes well today at the meeting, and that you can relax and get back on track.
    3220 days ago
  • NUTS4NUTELLA
    As always, thank you for being so honest and open with us and yourself
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    3220 days ago
  • COOKWITHME65
    Thinking of you Ashley. You probably haven't been able to relax much this weekend.Don't resign, it will make it difficult to collect benefits. they can't fire you as you have been performing and have not received warnings. They could lay you off though. Things will work out for the best.
    3220 days ago
  • ALOFA0509

    I'm sorry your going thru this sista. I'll be thinking of you on Monday.. BREATH.. Were all here for you ;)

    Hugs,
    Alofa
    3220 days ago
  • TISHA80
    Thank you for your honesty. I'm sure you will find your bliss. Just hang in there in the mean time.
    3220 days ago
  • MILTONS_MAMA
    I hope that your meeting goes well on Monday. Please don't resign, because you can get unemployment benefits if they fire you.
    3221 days ago
  • SHIRLEY_BEE
    Keep Faith dear Ashley. Faith and confidence in yourself is going to get you through this. You are growing and learning more about yourself and your strengths through this experience. You shall overcome. Your resilience in very inspiring, as is your writing. You are a WINNER. Congratulations on your awesome weight loss emoticon
    3221 days ago
  • GINA180847
    Good luck on Monday Ashley, I will be waiting to read about it on the blog. This waiting sucks doesn't it? Truly in my opinion you will not be fired but they do not make it easy for you.
    3221 days ago
  • DUSTYGIRL25
    Good for You for taking this forward for everyone else to read.
    We are all human and we all have different situations daily.
    So if one persons actions can help someone else along the way then Great. Thats what we are supposed to be doing by helping, motivating and supporting each other.

    Whatever happens, I'm sure you will come out on top! emoticon
    3221 days ago
  • TRACEEAST
    Ashley, I admire you for how well you are doing, but also because of your honesty and how REAL you are. I know that all is not going to be sunshine and roses in this journey, but when I see others go thru rough times and pick themselves up out of it, I know I will be able to also!
    I pray that you'll be happy and content with whatever happens in this work situation.
    3221 days ago
  • SCHENPOSSIBLE
    I was going through a similiar situation with my job. Each day I went in ridden with anxiety because I wasn't sure if that was going to be the day that I got fired. Eventually things settled down and I kept the job. I was so worried about getting fired that I couldn't think of anything else. I've never been fired or let go from a job and I couldn't handle the thought of it. I'm thankful that I have a job, but I often wonder what other opportunities would've presented themselves to me had I left that job. That's one thing I'll never know. But for this moment I'm trying to listen to the cues in my life that make me uncomfortable and I know that it's time for a change. You're absolutely right, you can't change the outcome of things and please don't give yourself added anxiety trying to figure out why your boss does this or that. Sometimes there just isn't any rhyme or reason. But find comfort in knowing that you've put your best foot forward, you've always been professional and that you will land on your feet. Good luck tomorrow!
    3221 days ago
  • HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE
    Ahsley, you are a strong woman and you will succeed, no matter what happens at this meeting! Don't live in fear, it only makes things worse. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. {{HUGS}}
    3221 days ago
  • ECONLADY
    Honesty with yourself is wonderful. Go on and do your job. Stop living in fear of losing it. It just isn't a good way to live. Go ahead and start searching for a new job. You are a survivor!
    3221 days ago
  • SDJOLLY
    Your strength and attitude is amazing. Thank you for being honest. I know I still struggle with my emotions and how I handle them. It's nice to know I'm not alone. Whatever happens with your job, I know you're going to be fine!
    3221 days ago
  • KIMBYUT
    You have an amazing attitude and outlook. It's difficult in the midst of things to make the "right" decisions and to see the forest through the trees (or however that saying goes lol). Whatever happens on Monday, is outside your control. No matter what the outcome, you can be proud and hold your head high that you go in there and do your best and are a hard working and ethical employee. I know the economy is tough and all that, but no matter the outcome, you are too determined to get knocked down and stay down. They say necessity breeds creativity, maybe this job will be what pushes you to make a career change. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow!

    3221 days ago
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