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Is this really how I'm suppose to be?

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I'm at a loss and it isn't a good one, the only thing I seem to be successful at these days is gaining weight. I'm not over exaggerating this by any means, I seriously am gaining about a pound every week. And don't tell me oh that means you are eating 500 calories too many each day, WRONG!!! I really have no idea what to do. I'm so tired, tired of wasting my time, effort, energy and money only to have my pants get tighter and tighter. I'm exhausted, I can barely get up in the morning, I try my very best not to fall asleep at work everyday, it takes everything I have to make it to class after work and then walk my dog when I get home. To be honest failure every week is down right depressing.

If I were told this is the weight I'll always be at no matter what I do, I would accept, I may not be happy about it, but I would accept. I'd go out and buy new clothes that fit, I'd get rid of my scale, HRM and everything else that brings me down. I'd workout just the same as I do now, and I'd do a little more ST so perhaps I could at least have more muscle and feel healthier.

Is it suppose to be this hard to lose weight? It seems like such a piece of cake for others, eat a little less here, have a little more of this and just like that they lose weight and their clothes fit better. Do I have to starve myself for the rest of my life in order to not gain weight because that is truly how I feel at this point and I've gone out of my way to not live like that. What will I tell people when they ask what I do, oh I starve myself everyday and workout like an athlete you know the usual. No, I don't think that's what everyone else does, but I've begun to wonder.

If anyone has any suggestions I'm open to them, surely there has got to be something out there I haven't tried? Just tell me the secret already!
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  • AMBER281
    Sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time.
    I am wondering if there is something else going on that is causing you not to lose weight. From Blaizes comment it sounds like you had blood work done. See what that says, maybe your thyroid or hormone are out of whack.
    Also, how well do you sleep at night?? I have been having discussions with my DR about my sleep pattern because I know I don't usually get enough of the deep sleep to reset my hormones, heart etc and that can also effect weight loss/gain.

    2494 days ago
    It does sound like you might need your Thyroid meds adjusted, it is not right to be so tired and gaining weight so steadily. The stress adds to it, I think I would be doing my best not to let it bring me down and trust that it will work out in time. Hugs!
    2586 days ago
    DONT GIVE UP!!! emoticon thats what some people want to see you do give up and fail but prove everybody wrong and yourself right. Everybody would be in perfect shape if this was easy but its not. It takes dedication, time, and commitment. Just stay true to yourself and accomplish your goals like you know you can.
    2586 days ago
    I am sorry Mary, I'm having a hard time right now too, so I don't have any good advice other than keep pushing forward. I have to think it will get easier. It sounds like perhaps getting your blood tested like others have suggested would be a good idea. emoticon
    2586 days ago
  • UNICORN212
    If you just had blood work done (per Blaize's comment) make sure you get a copy. Hopefully they tested free T3 and free T4 and maybe your adrenals? Maybe the blood work will give some clues. Maybe your doctor will add some Cytomel or put you on a complete thyroid med.
    2586 days ago
    got several questions for you. I know you're on the thyroid group too...what is your diagnosis? are you on synthroid by any chance? saw you are also part of the vegetarian you eat a lot of soy? soy can cause thyroid meds to not work as effectively. I had a horrid time trying to lose weight until I cut out the soy. I understand and know your frustration. you mentioned taking classes....are you in college? if so, see if there is an on campus dietician that you can see. I see one through my school and she's helped tremendously.
    2586 days ago
    This may be totally unrelated but I saw on Dr. Oz today that something like 99% of people who are intolerant of gluten don't know about it and it can lead to weight gain and fatigue. If you can catch it tonight in your area you should try. Might have some ideas for you.
    2586 days ago
    First thing first. I will not tell you you are eating 500 calories too much. I will however say that stress can weigh you down, no pun intended. Stress makes the body produce cortisol & adrenaline both which help the body store calories/fat for the fight/flight.

    And I won't say don't stress,,, easier said then done. What I will say is be consistent/persistent in going forward! Find something anything everyday that will make you laugh. May sound silly but laughter is emotional aerobics and helps to dispel stress & anxiety.

    I won't tell you not to compare yourself to others, but I Will say are you "others" or are you yourself wonderfully made and unique to yourself..

    And I will say stop starving yourself! Who told you you had to starve yourself? You body is doing what it is design to do:protect itself from what it perceives as impending famine; it will slow down its metabolism to save what calories it can so it can function.

    Don't fight against yourself. Cherish yourself.

    It will get better I promise. Now get out there and go for a walk and glow like there is no tomorrow! emoticon

    2586 days ago
    Mary, it sounds like you may be have something else going on. If you are watching what you are eating and are so tired all the time, it may be another problem. You should maybe contact your Dr.

    Do you think that maybe it is just because the job and school are getting to you?

    Don't give up, this is not easy for anybody. It is the hardest job that I have ever had.
    2586 days ago
    Oh mary, you know how I feel...we've been talking about it for a while. Wait to get your blood work back, I think that there is something off that will help explain this and will be fixed so you can get back on track!!! Hang in there beautiful lady
    2586 days ago
    I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time losing right now! I wish I had that magiical bit of information to give you , I really do. I guess the only think I can tell you is just not to give you. Some how some way there is a reasoning behind everything our bodies are doing. XOXO
    2586 days ago
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