Spring is here.. or is it?!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I've fallen so far behind in my blogging here on sparks it's horrible. the last time i blogged it was new years! now it's 3 months later .. the calendar says spring, but here in NH mother nature says nope not yet..you're gonna suffer through more cold weather and snow!
My youngest has been sick all winter, hardly getting a reprieve. with no insurance or pcp right now, i treat him the best i can at home until i've exhausted all my resources and tried everything i can think of, at that point i take him to the urgent care clinic. 2x now i've done this. he's been that sick. the 2nd time, we ended up in the pediatric ER at the local hospital. his o2 levels were low and not responding as quickly as the dr's hoped to the treatment at the urgent care, so off we went to the ER. We were there about 2 hrs, chest x-rays, another breathing treatment, and he was dubbed well enough to go home. Diagnosis? bronchitis & uri (head cold) this kid just isn't catching a break. we finally get him past this and he gets a flu like bug. he had it coming out both ends for 24 hrs, then it was just horrid out the bottom end. we went through so many diapers, bedding changes at 2-4am, laundry at that hour.. it's hard to tell a 2yo you can only have a few things to try and bind up. we FINALLY get over that..and YUP he's sick again with a chest cold. good thing is, he's not wheezing horribly. just a horrid cough and congestion. i'm hesitant to give him anything though. I want his body to be able to fight without hindrance.
Slow goings on the work front. I've been job searching, but because i have no usable skillz other than retail, and some waitstaff..that's 9 years old..i'm having a hard time finding work.
Even the hubs is having a hard time. no matter where he applies, just keeps getting a no, or them telling him he doesn't really want the job or, he's over qualified. Seriously..desperate here!
Weight? hahahaha.. since i've moved back to NH i've gained the weight back that i lost. I hate the cold..i abhor it. I will do anything to not have to deal with it. and as long as it stays cold outside, i'll not venture out unless i need to . not good on the exercise front. i long to take a jog..but if it's cold, i won't and cant. Can't? yeah..see my asthma hates me, that if the weather is too cold or too hot it acts up. i quite literally can't breathe if i'm out in either for too long.
well what about the gym? well that falls under not having any money.. seriously..i can't even dig couch cushions for change .. there just isn't any coming in. Workout at home.. yeah, i can..but where? and without a small child under foot? nearly impossible.
I know i have to want this.. but i hate doing it alone and no one here seems to want to do anything with me. i know that if i start doing things they'll do it too..but it's just getting to that starting point. i need to figure out what's truly stopping me. I'm not sick anymore.. i'm perfectly capable of getting up in the morning and turning on the Wii and having a go. i'd prefer my PS2 & DDR workouts ..but well there's no room for that really. *sigh*
well this just turned into a major downer post. i'm just gonna go now. lol.