Not Giving Up
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Sometimes when things get rough we just want to give up. Well right now things are rough for me - mom is not doing good and I fear that we will lose her. I know that she wants me to make sure this family works together. My mom is a very strong lady, with a heart of gold. She always thought about family first and raised my sister and I to really be strong. My sister turns to drink when she is upset and has been on a drunk now since the beginning of the year. In and out of the hospital, etc. I finally said enough is enough with her and don't really talk with her much. My mom asked about her and deep down I know she knows what she is like, but hopes she will get better. My sister has not seen my mom since Christmas. There is nothing I can do for her but pray for her and that I will and always be her sister. My nephew and his family help me a lot and I am close with them.
I'm trying to make this family work together for my mom, but I'm not giving up on anything yet. I also am not giving up on me. I had a weak moment when I wanted to quit my healthy journey, but really thought about this and told myself, I'm feeing better, have more energy, and can do anything I put my mind too. What good would it be if I quit everything - who would I be helping NO ONE. I just be hurting myself. So no matter how stressed I get with this family, how I think I never will be as strong as my mom, but I'll try, no matter how work gets me down I still will do this. I enjoy feeling better and I'm having fun.
I think if we really look at all our problems we will see we are just like anyone else. It is just how you handle them, and yes I want to give up at times, but inside I can't. I know I can do this and plan to do it and succeed. I'll be there for mom through all of this just like she was for me. I'll make it.