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Not Giving Up

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Sometimes when things get rough we just want to give up. Well right now things are rough for me - mom is not doing good and I fear that we will lose her. I know that she wants me to make sure this family works together. My mom is a very strong lady, with a heart of gold. She always thought about family first and raised my sister and I to really be strong. My sister turns to drink when she is upset and has been on a drunk now since the beginning of the year. In and out of the hospital, etc. I finally said enough is enough with her and don't really talk with her much. My mom asked about her and deep down I know she knows what she is like, but hopes she will get better. My sister has not seen my mom since Christmas. There is nothing I can do for her but pray for her and that I will and always be her sister. My nephew and his family help me a lot and I am close with them.

I'm trying to make this family work together for my mom, but I'm not giving up on anything yet. I also am not giving up on me. I had a weak moment when I wanted to quit my healthy journey, but really thought about this and told myself, I'm feeing better, have more energy, and can do anything I put my mind too. What good would it be if I quit everything - who would I be helping NO ONE. I just be hurting myself. So no matter how stressed I get with this family, how I think I never will be as strong as my mom, but I'll try, no matter how work gets me down I still will do this. I enjoy feeling better and I'm having fun.

I think if we really look at all our problems we will see we are just like anyone else. It is just how you handle them, and yes I want to give up at times, but inside I can't. I know I can do this and plan to do it and succeed. I'll be there for mom through all of this just like she was for me. I'll make it.
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  • ANGORA4
    Beautiful post. I am so impressed. You can't change your family, and it sounds like you've made all the best choices, but I'm so impressed with your attitude, being open, still having fun, taking care of yourself, being there for mom. I know this is tough, but hang in there. You're doing great.
    3674 days ago
  • SHASTA11
    It's either up or down isn't it. Too bad you're having a lot of down's. You are very strong though and with your family I'm sure you'll come out right side up.

    Is your mom still aware?

    How little Evan and his family?

    Take care of yourself!

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    3675 days ago
  • GREBJACK
    Hang in there - I and your other SparkFriends are rooting for you.
    3675 days ago
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