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They Fight All The Time

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Here I am again. I've had a good week getting back on course. I've stayed within my calorie range. I've drank at least 10 glasses of water every day. Sleep has been a little off due to the time change but, believe me, I've had much less. I've done my cardio and strength training. My reward? I gained a pound.

I have been here before...many times. One of the last times, I researched it and learned that sometimes, when we start working out, our bodies retain more water.

However, I'm still sitting here and not feeling very good about my situation. My mind and emotions are having a real battle.

Emotions: OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brain to emotions: Settle down. We have done this before. Stay focused.

Emotions: Stay focused on what? Gaining more weight?

Brain: You didn't gain weight. You increased fluid.

Emotions: Scale went up dummy. Up is synonymous with increase, plus, more...duh?

Brain: Yeah...increase in, plus, more fluid to help your muscles rebuild. That's not the same thing.

Emotions: It doesn't really matter. I don't want to see a plus anything. I want those numbers to go down. I can't stand to see them go up when I worked so hard. I sacrificed what I cream, chocolate, eating out. Plus, I almost died in that spinning class.

Brain: {Sigh} You didn't almost die. It was hard and even painful but if you won't quit again and stick with it, it will get easier. AND...the numbers will go down.

Emotions: Yeah, I can envision my future....starve, sweat, track, starve, sweat, track...scale up a pound, down a pound, down two pounds, up four pounds. WOO HOO! This is going to be fun!

Brain: OK, that's enough. Be honest. Eating what you want, sitting on your butt, and ignoring it is what got us here in the first place. And if you will think back...we didn't get here in a week or two or even a month or two. It took years.

Emotions: I know but I'm angry and sad and scared. I don't want to fail. I don't want to let myself down. It's hard.

Brain: I know... but if we give up today...then when you get yourself under control and want to try again.... and you will because you really aren't a quitter.... then we have to start all over.

Emotions: You're right but what if the scale goes up again? I don't know if I can take it.

Brain: What if it doesn't? But you won't know if you don't keep trying.
If it goes up next week, we'll analyze it and adjust if we need to. Please don't make us quit. I need better nutrition and our body is in danger. I know it's hard but you and I are strong. We have to work together. Let's don't worry so much about next Saturday's weigh in. Let's just do the right thing for the next couple of days. We are always pretty good at short bursts.

Emotions: Ok but if nothing happens...I'm blaming you.

Brain: Of course you are.......

Now that we've worked that out for now, I have a workout to do.

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    Good blog... great reminder... my battles seem eerily the same as yours!
    2587 days ago
    Great blog~ I FEEL your pain! I do not understand the scale and probably never will~it is so finicky~ I think I'm going to name mine Garfield! LOL

    We just have to keep on keepin' on and thank God for Spark! On here we are validated by the many success stories that somewhere along the line sounded just like your blog!

    You go girl!!! emoticon
    2588 days ago
    Never quit....I wish my fights were as polite lol

    Enjoy your workout
    2588 days ago
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