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This is when I usually give up...

Saturday, March 19, 2011

After a few months of working at at, I feel like I can't change. I still consistently go over my calories, I still obsess and feel guilty about it, and I'm still not losing weight. I go to the gym consistently, but that only matters if I am eating well to go with it. I don't know if I just formed such bad habits in college that it is extremely difficult to change them or if I'm just not committed enough. I just don't get it. I want to lose the weight and feel better about myself, but at the same time, I feel like I'm rally not doing what I should be doing to meet that goal.
Even in school, I was such a procrastinator and would wait until the last minute to do everything. I would work in a crunched period of time, putting off whatever it was that I needed to do for weeks until I absolutely had to get it done. I do that in all aspects of my life now too, including my weight management and eating habits. So what do I do??? It seems so ingrained in me...
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  • BOARDBUNNY1984
    Thanks guys for the comments. I had a really bad day yesterday too. I was doing well for a couple of weeks and now I can feel myself falling back into old habits. I've been working out regularly, but that isn't going to do anything if I'm not eating well too. Its hard to do the healthy snack thing sometimes because I still live at home and do not buy my own groceries. My parents buy relatively healthy food, but the snacks always seem more alluring. My problem is crackers...I don't know why...and eating late at night...I need to do something about this instead of complaining about it all of the time. Ugh...sometimes I wish motivation just fell out of the sky...

    But thanks for the support! Instead of wallowing in sorrow I need to just keep moving on and keep working at it. I often look at old pics of myself too, and it helps for a little bit, but then I often just start thinking about how I let myself get this way and how it sometimes feels like a battle I'm not going to win. I need to keep my head up and keep thinking positively....
    2667 days ago
  • MELTISCHA
    That's a great idea from TJMNK95, and it is something I do when I know what I'll be eating at my next meal, or the next day to help me see what I'll actually be taking in.
    If you are overeating with hunger then try eating small snacks more frequently? I love munching on raw carrots and they're so nutritious I don't have to feel guilty at all! Try and find something healthy that you love and eat it more regularly to curb your hunger?

    If it's just cravings/your appetite that are holding you back I totally understand that too. Before I joined SP I was eating a chocolate bar every day and takeaway pizzas three times a week. I tried waiting 20 minutes to see if I still wanted it but of course I did because for the whole 20 minutes it was all I thought about!
    The only thing that motivated me to make a change was looking at old pictures of myself and thinking about how much healthier I was then. I remembered feeling more comfortable in my clothes and my (then) boyfriend thought I was just beautiful. I looked happy in my own skin and that's what I want again now. I'm tired of going to the shop and feeling judged on the food I'm buying, or going out with my friend and feeling like a big fat lump next to her. I'd like some male attention too!!! emoticon

    Then I found SP and it has helped me immensely. I can see where I'm going wrong if I have a bad day, and since you can play around with the portion sizes and check the nutrition info I can now work out a healthy portion of a food I really want and eat just that amount without feeling guilty. Although, most of the time I just choose not to have it at all (I find that easier), and I really don't miss it at all!!
    I would also recommend the motivational stories. To see people who had a much longer weight loss journey than me who have reached their goals really is inspirational. It helps me to put my situation in perspective and reminds me that I have done it before and I can do it again.

    I know that a lot of that sounds corny but I hope something in there helps you!

    Please don't lose faith in yourself emoticon
    2675 days ago
  • ARTSY_CANDICE
    I just wrote a blog today about the same thing!!

    The only answer I have for you and myself at this time is we need to fake it till we make it. I'm not sure that doing what I'm doing now will get me where I want to be, but I DO know 100% that going back to my old ways will only end in unhappiness.

    hugs and lets just keep faking it, someday we WILL make it!
    2677 days ago
  • JOYCERN12
    Hey, chin up, maybe you need to try logging before you eat. Then if you see you are going over calories you can put 1/2 back.Good luck and if you don't keep trying, you will NOT like the results emoticon
    2678 days ago
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