Going backwards! Ackkk!

To anyone and everyone,
Well, I seem to have a knack for blowing it with this diet/lifestyle change. Not only did I NOT lose the six pounds, that I so readily patted myself on the back for losing, but those are back plus two more!! It always happens about a week before the monthly cycle that my weight magically goes down and cravings go up. Go figure! (no pun intended) I really forgot about that somehow, while getting into the Spark diet and lifestyle. It did seem fantastically easy when those pounds were dropping off. {sigh} That should have been the big tip-off, but still I thought it was from my efforts. Well, now the monthly cycle comes and the cravings go and the weight is back to MORE than when I started!! I get on the scale this morning and POW! Right in the kisser! Should have known that indulging in some of my craziness for chocolate Symphony bars would show up eventually. {sigh}
Well, try, try again. Thankfully, I never had a weight issue in life... until now. So it's hard to change my ingrained eating habits. No matter, it's always hard to change. It's hard to have to think about it all the time..to track food, exercise etc. But more, it's even harder to realize that my body is not acting the way it used to anymore. It's changed, and my old ways will not work any longer. I really have to "get that" into my head now. A large candy bar before bed will sabotage all the hard work and planning you did diet-wise all day long! I have to Get that. Indulging in lots of sugar and cream, ie: extra, extra, will eventually add up big time and not burn up. Cinnamon poptarts do not a weight loss diet make!
Well, I'm feeling bad physically and emotionally today because of the cycle being two weeks late and starting today, and also because of the extra weight gain. Oh Pooh to growing older, slowing metabolisms, pre-menopause and wacky crazy hormones! I want to be 29 again! {pout, pout, stomp, stomp, stomp} There, I had my little venting temper-tantrum.
Thanks for letting me air it, Sparkpeople.com!
Well, I guess I'll start all over again....{sigh}. I'll meditate on the last couple of weeks, write down for memory what changes to make and recommit to it. I'll review my notes daily to keep with my goals and keep in touch with the wonderful friends and Sparkfriends too. Ahhh, see? Just venting and I feel better all ready! Oh, an the book, The Spark, just arrived in the mail today, so I can get busy with that too.
Here is a quote that makes me laugh every time I read it as I'm on the "edge"
it seems on a daily basis. ha, ha ha. Enjoy.

The Edge...
There is no honest way to explain it,
because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.” - Hunter S. Thompson
And I say...... Just smile and wave . J. Mraz