Okay first off I want to say that I am starting over today. Today at work I just looked at myself and said I need to stop being happy and unhappy based on how bloated I am. I have all the tools to lose more weight and the only thing standing in my way is this horrible nightly snacking. This week because Matt is away I got rid of anything I could possibly snack on. All I have are single packet 100 calorie popcorn and 100 calorie orange sherbet pops. It’s a step in the right direction. And I decided what I would do is put a countdown on my refridgerator for my trip to Puerto Rico. I want so badly to wear a bikini. Everyone I ask says “Oh if you cant, tankini’s are nice.” And yes they are. But I bust my ass so hard. I do 45 minutes of cardio and 25 mins of strength 6 days a week. Why CANT I wear a bikini? I have some stubborn belly fat that needs to go to finally make me feel confident. So from today on, I have control. I am TELLING myself I have control. And lately I’ve been eating smaller meals throughout the day such as 5 egg whites for breakfast, greek yogurt and an apple for lunch, then a kasha protein bar and a banana mid-afternoon, and then a medium sized dinner. This has been working for me right now and I accept that it probably won’t always work for me, but it’s working now. I am doing this one day at a time. I am home alone tonight, I just ate my dinner. I was really good and made a shrimp stir fry that is 200 calories a serving with low sodium, so I made the bag and added extra vegetables just to bulk it up. I scooped out the serving (which was half the bag) and put the rest in the fridge. I also made 3 mini chicken eggrolls. It felt good to prepare my own little dinner. It’s Asian night! And the whole thing was less than 500 calories. And even though I know I can have more, I am not. I’m giving myself a solid hour to digest before I have an ice pop or some popcorn. I want to do that to help with the snacking. Space the snacking by one hour. I feel like doing this will help me to control this nighttime snacking. It’s my new plan of attack.
SECONDLY. I have started Jillian Michael’s newest DVD Ripped in 30. (I’ve also started listening to her podcast which I’ll talk about later). But I cheated. I watched the first 3 weeks (it’s a four week program) and I can honestly say they are what I’ve been doing for months. It’s a combination of her 30 day Shred and No More Trouble Zones and the moves I do almost every day so they aren’t challenging. So I watched week 3 and she brings in some BRAND NEW moves and I decided I will do level 3 for 2 weeks then level four for 2 weeks. I did take before pictures and you know what I am going to post them on here. I will be brave. Proud of the arms, not so much the belly lol. I have to remember to take a picture of my legs tomorrow. But anyway, a month from today I will take another picture. So in a way I am giving myself another goal, to stick to my calorie limit for one month so that I can take these pictures to show you guys. It gives me the motivation to be better. I want to improve my tone and my strength and tighten. I’m excited to see the results.
I’ve been listening to Jillian Michael’s podcast and I really enjoy it. She talks to doctors about certain topics like PCOD and diabetes, and I would definitely recommend listening to it. They’re an hour each and keep me interested the entire time. It just reinstates what I love about her, that she’s not just a hot body on the cover of a workout dvd. Yes she’s built an empire with her face on everything from yoga mats to dumbells, but she’s passionate. And it reminds me of why I love this lifestyle. You have to CARE about your body and your future. You have to aim high to avoid the lows that our country is experiencing health-wise. And along the way I hope to inspire others. I want to learn as much as I can about this lifestyle, because every day I learn something new that I incorporate into my routine.
Anyway, I’m feeling confident tonight. I’m feeling good. I know low nights WILL happen. I just have to know how to deal with it. If I feel lonely or depressed tonight or later, I will do a few moves from the dvd that I didn’t do today. There’s like three moves I didn’t do only because I was at the gym and they’re kind of explosive. So I’ll tell myself every time I get sad or depressed or want to snack, I am going to do some of those moves. One is squatting, rolling onto your back, rolling back onto your feet and popping up. I also LOVE the down-dog pushup. Definitely get this dvd. It’s amazing.
I hope everyone has a great night. Remember, you can do this. YOU’RE IN CONTROL. It’s what I tell myself every day and while sometimes I fail, more often than not I win.
Here are my pictures. March 14. On April 14 we will see the results! Tomorrow I'll post my legs into this blog.