Can't believe I did this!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I can't believe I gained even more weight than my steady "three year high" of 187. As if the 187 wasn't bad enough. Now, this past fall, I was able to lose some weight though a small illness. Not the way to go, but it did bring me down to a whopping 172! Even that was still considered obese for my ht. & wt. So, what did I go and do? Stuff my face and not move enough and gain the 15 back along with another 13 for a grand "all time high" of 200!!! YIKES! A nice ROUND figure...no pun intended! This is my own doing; no one else but me. What's wrong with me? Ugh! Nothing fit so well even then, but now, it's horrible! Everything I put on looks horrible..that is IF I can even get into it. I'm left with only baggy lightweight pajamas and a couple of baggy shirts and pants now. I'm going to detail a few things I hate about this so I can keep myself motivated to Quit eating badly, make good choices, to exercise and finally lose this weight once and for all.

# 1 I have terrible acid reflux that wakes me up choking on it. Gross, I know.
# 2 I sweat like crazy at the slightest bit of activity. Also, gross. I'm SOOOOO Sick of this!
# 3 I feel SOOO uncomfortable sitting because it feels like my ribs are being smooshed into my belly and throat all at the same time.
# 4 Standing and moving causes terrific lower back pain due to the bigger belly in front.
# 5 There are parts of my body that I cannot reach without a struggle. Ack!
# 6 My feet hurt if I'm on them for a bit.
# 7 Things shake when I walk by them now...like my china hutch. (sigh)

There, now when I feel like eating the wrong things, I'll have this to remind me of the negative things about being overweight.....and certainly this list can go on and on. Now the positives of losing weight and being at my normal weight.
# 1 You don't have to think about weight related things.
# 2 More of a Give attitude...thinking of others
# 3 You don't have to think of clothes anymore because everything you have looks nice.
# 4 No more excess sweating, now you need a sweater!
# 5 You have tons of energy.
# 6 You can bend, walk, reach, dance with relative ease.
# 7 Much more confidence, a normal, happy, positive outlook.
# 8 People respond better to you. Yes, it's true unfortunately.
# 9 Relationship with hubby is less strained on my part.
# 10 He enjoys the thinner me, even though he wouldn't say that, I can tell.
# 11 I enjoy the thinner me also!
# 12 I can join into the activities again without being so shy; beach, cookout, sports etc.

SO, that's it for now. I'm fairly new here so this is a bit awkward trying to take all of this "Spark" in. But it's a wonderful site! I just ordered the Spark book and hope to read that as soon as it gets here on Wednesday. I hope to be able to follow this plan and lose the weight and gain lots of Spark friends for friendship and shared support. Today's the day....and Tomorrow's another day! Ha, ha. emoticon emoticon
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    You really can do it. So, now that you've dumped the garbage, be as many of the positive things you listed now...make positive choices, be giving, dress in beautiful things, bend, walk, dance!, be positive, happy, and confident, respond to people the way you want them to respond to you, love you husband! Drop the shyness and live, and let that living help you transform. You CAN do it! Best wishes to you as you embrace life and try to achieve your goals!!!
    3599 days ago
  • TEDYBEAR2838
    Think on the positives and get rid of the negatives.


    It takes time, effort and a MINDSET. Once you got that you can do it. We are here for you on SP and make the journey lighter by being there for each other.
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    3599 days ago
    Welcome! Glad to have you among the flock! You can make the changes you want to make if you just keep taking the next step and then one more. Be well.
    3599 days ago
    Way to go in taking the first major step towards a new life ! Take things slow, make small goals for yourself and you will do just fine.

    3599 days ago
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