Confessions of a backslider...

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Today was the first day that I have been back to my Turbo Kick Class in almost a month.

I am so upset with myself for how I let myself go in just a short time. And the weight that I have gained back in a 2 month period is all sitting around my midsection. The effect is immediate in how my jeans fit.

You ask why? What happened?

I hit snooze one too many times.
I put my life on auto pilot for too long.
I've been putting my photography in front of too many things. It is my small business, but there is a balance between improving my skills and consuming myself in it.

I just plain feel heavy.

The wall in front of me just seems so much larger this time and I am not sure why.

I know exactly what needs to be done to get back on track, but getting myself to commit to doing those things is extremely rough.

I just want to say, "FUNK - BE GONE" and my determination and motivation and spunk will be back, just like that.

Today was a turning point though. I went to both Turbo Kick Classes in the am and pm and burned 1400 calories between the two of them.

There is a 2 mile race on St. Patty's weekend that I have done the past two years and I am nowhere near ready. This winter was horrible for trying to run outside (no treadmill here). But there's no reason I couldn't have found a way to stay on top of my cardio!

There is a 5k in April, but will I be ready? I fear the shin splints will come to haunt me if I start out again training too much too soon.

I'm thinking my best bet is to train for our local 5k on July 9th, that would be a more reasonable goal. And the 3 mile trail run I did last year is also in July.

I need to up my stamina in Turbo Kick and with running. Does anyone know how to keep my energy level high when I exercise? Besides keep going...after 30 minutes, I really start to putter out. That's my shortfall in running too. Which is why I never start out too fast.

Well, this short blog has become a rambling blog.

You want to check out my latest photograhy session? See my blog!

It is good to vent - even when I know I am the only one who can change the outcome...
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  • SALINA78
    I'm so proud to see that your photography is taking off and you are having fun with it!
    But, I know exactly how you feel! Everything you have said is how I feel.
    It's nice not feeling alone.
    But, let's do this!
    We know that we felt much better when we were moving these bodies more. ;)
    I am so struggling to get back in to the grrove and staying consistent.
    But I really want this!!!
    3095 days ago
    If I tracked my motivation throughout the year, there's always highs and lows. In the past couple years it's seemed that motivation to workout/eat right/get on track is pretty much non existent most of the year with ocassional flickers of "let's do this!" This year has been a little different though. I just try to keep remembering something I heard a long time ago when someone asked a health expert on TV how to get motivation and they explained that motivation comes from doing. It creates a snowball affect. I guess so because it's been true for me this year. Taking the first step is hard - but you did it by going back to Turbo! Keep the snowball going!
    3146 days ago
  • GIGI1222
    Kelly it will come back quicker than you expect. So glad that you are coming back and getting on track again.
    3147 days ago
    Kelly, was so glad to have you back!!! Your stamina will come back!!! Just when you think you are pushing yourself hard, push a little harder!!!!
    3147 days ago
    3147 days ago
    emoticon I'm really glad you didn't just give up and quit! It is so good to see you again and to know that you are still a fighter and are going to stay healthy! emoticon emoticon
    3148 days ago
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