Realization 1: Not Beating Myself Up

Thursday, March 10, 2011

I've done Sparkpeople before... I've tried to lose weight before, yet it hasn't worked out the handful of times I tried. And I discovered this about myself - in the past, if I didn't drink 8 glasses of water or missed entering my food, I felt bad about myself. If I missed work outs for two days in a row - even three! - I felt like a failure... not completely, just slightly. But each time a step was missed or a goal was set back these little feelings of failure would add up until somehow, maybe even subconsciously, I gave up. I convinced myself that I was too busy right now or that I would get back on track tomorrow.

Now I realize - I'm trying to change a lot of things in a relatively short amount of time! I'm trying to not only eat well, but cook more AND track everything I eat. I not only am trying to drink more water, I'm trying to drink 8 glasses whereas before I was lucky if I had 2! I'm trying to workout 6 days a week, when before I was not working out at all! AND I'm trying to finish reading the Spark when I never read a book regularly in my spare time. Though I'm happy to follow the Sparkpeople regimen, I'm realizing that I'm trying to change SO MUCH in my day to day --- if I do even half or a quarter of my goals everday, that's really something!

This time around I'm committed to being healthy and I've finally gotten a grasp on what I'm doing is a complete lifestyle change that won't happen overnight.

This morning I felt bad about myself for missing my strength training last night, but here I am at 7 AM dressed to do cardio before I get ready for work -- I don't know why I have a hard time celebrating and realizing the good I'm doing and focusing on the bad. But not this time - no no... I'm questioning my negativity every step of the way and am asking myself... Hey self, go easy on me. I'm trying to do a lot for you right now and if I miss something every once in a while - who cares? In the long run, you'll thank me for it.

Here's to not beating myself up!

Thanks for reading :)

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    2652 days ago
    there is ALOT of information out there and what you should and shouldn't do. just focus on one change at a time! and the rest will fall into place! it's taken me over a year to get where i am not only physically but the healthy lifestyle as well. drinking tons of water, strength training, eating clean, cardio, getting enough sleep and the list goes on.... it didn't come over night and heck i still slip up! you can do it though! and the best thing you can tell yourself is you are not perfect but you will succeed!! were all in it together and here for you!

    2656 days ago
    Excellent blog and so true. Something we ALL need to be reminded of when we're trying to get back into the swing of things.

    2656 days ago
    If you do one thing today that is better for you than something you did yesterday, you have not failed! Just keep on trucking!
    2656 days ago
  • ROBINS78
    Way To Go on getting back to it. And you are right, be easy on yourself, its the best thing you can do for yourself. Be your own best friend! SparkPeople is an awesome place to be for support and knowledge! You can do this! You can! No one says you have to be perfect. You have a gazzillion and one cheerleaders here!

    2656 days ago
    Good for you!
    2656 days ago
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