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sometimes life's a struggle........

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Having trouble coping at the moment, too many things ganging up on me. Problems at work and at home, most of them outside of my control - I've done what I can to affect the outcome but now I just have to sit back and wait for other people to make the decisions...... :-((

Work have refused once again to let me take early retirement, yet I am achieving nothing being there, which is soul destroying. Everything is log-jammed behind one particular project which has major problems. Until that gets sorted out nothing else can be implemented. It's basically been like this for the last 3 years with no sign of an end in sight yet :-(

Having problems with the freeholder of my home who wants to do major building work which will cut out most of the natural light from my kitchen (amongst other bad impacts of their plans).

I desperately need to have a big sort out at home and get rid of a load of the junk I have been hoarding unnecessarily for years.

In the midst of all this, I know it makes sense to eat healthily to give myself the best chance of coping with it all, but it just all seems too much effort. As soon as the smallest thing goes wrong I am in danger of bursting into tears - not good. I'm not sleeping well, keep waking up far too regularly and when I do sleep my dreams aren't good ones. So I am currently fighting off the tendency to slide into depression, sometimes I think I am winning, other times I think not.......


Ps 34 v1 - I am glad verses of scripture don't wear out, this one is my lifeline at the moment.
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    The Serenity Prayer is one I love : -
    God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
    Even my children use this when they are having a hard time.
    I really identified with your blog. That sense of overload and helplessness is just horrible. Not being able to turn your head off and get a good night's sleep just makes matters worse. You have a good attitude, you have done all you can. Perhaps a visit to the doctor's might be an idea if you carry on feeling the way you are. There is only so much we can cope with.
    Like you, I know that healthy eating and regular exercise would really help when I feel the way you describe, and I find myself doing the exact opposite! I slob around and eat too much chocolate. Then I feel worse. Why is that?
    Spring is round the corner. I do hope you feel better soon.
    2599 days ago
  • ERINE63
    You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think. -Christopher Robin

    Hang in there! God has a plan for everything!!
    2602 days ago
    emoticon I hear you loud and clear. I'm having coping issues right now, too. With God by our side, we'll make it.
    2602 days ago
    I'm sorry you are having such a hard time right now. I can't do anything about the job or the building problem, but I can offer a suggestion about the clutter. The website below is great at helping out with that.

    'k know if you have ever looked at it, but it has done wonders for my family and me.
    2604 days ago
    I'm sorry that so much is going on all at once :( I know how hard it is to struggle with a million things going on and not feeling like you have 100% control of it. I, like you, have had stuff going on and I was bad and fell off the wagon. I got to the point where I was just too overwhelmed. I still struggle with trying to figure it all out, but I like how you mentioned the Scripture. God is in control and the thing I keep telling myself is that we are all exactly where we are meant to be at this point in time in the universe. You're doing great, hang in there and it will all work out. emoticon
    2604 days ago
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