Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Today was my second day with Spark People. I have to say it is great to be back. I forgot how much I wanted to succeed while on this site.
I have hope today. I know what I need to work on. I was reading Self Magazine and found myself tearing about a page with a success story on it. This girl lost over 200lbs and looks great. It is possible. I can do this. I can feel better about myself.
I also feel hope for making my dreams of being a mom come true. I scheduled my first visit today with an infertility specialist. Well, actually it is just the first exam then I go for a infirtility exam. Still it is the first step right? I did let my nerves and worry get the better of me though today. I started thinking about if I would be rejected because of my size. I know I need to be healthier but I am hoping they see I am trying to get there and won't deny me. Also, I started thinking about if this was all going to work. I know I am thinking way ahead. I had to slow myself down and take a breath. Go back to first step and get through my first exam. I can't get ahead of myself :)
This year is shaping up to be an eventful one....full of good things and doing things for myself!
Good luck to all !