What I Shouldn't Be Thinking/Feeling
Sunday, March 06, 2011
Something about being at home with no gym and no scale is really frustrating me and making me feel like I'm never going to get anyway near accomplishing my fitness goals (which, deep down I know is not true if I just keep consistent and motivated but you know how the human mind can work). I mean, naturally I tend to go through these sort of cycles and I try not to talk about it here but I feel like really, it's part of the process. If I can't be honest on my own blog then personally I feel I might as well not have a public blog. I've never been one to be private in my writing, whether that happens to be blog posts or statuses.
Anyway, I'm frustrated. I've stood in front of the mirror a few times poking and pinching myself just kind of silently hoping it'll magically melt off either instantly or just a wee bit faster. The gym makes me feel secure about my fitness. I know there's a track where I can run, a weight room where I can lift, and Ellipticals and stationary bikes where I can get in my extra Cardio. At home, there's none of that and it makes me worried.
I want to stop worrying about whether or not I'm hitting my marks but I guess that is just one more part of the challenge...