Anxiety and pain.

Sunday, March 06, 2011

As I sit here writing this, I am exactly 24hrs and 15 minutes from "H" hour.
I feel nauseous and empty at the future prospects and by blogging is one small comfort to let it out of my system.
I do know that this time will come and it will go and I WILL move on.
I just need tomorrow to arrive now.
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  • GIVEUP30
    I guess I'm not sure what is Coming Monday..but I do wish you all the good luck
    2969 days ago
    I really feel for you Chris! It isn't long till Monday morning, though it will probably go really slowly! It will soon be over and I hope there will be a good outcome! All the best! I am thinking of you my dear friend!
    Ellen xx
    2970 days ago
    2970 days ago
  • ANNC16
    The waiting is the worst part of it Chris. Take it from one who knows. I'm sure that you ahve all kinds of things going through your head right now. All possible senarios, all possible results, and all possible outcomes. All I can say Chris is that I know how strong you are, I know how you have come through the last 2 years, and faced the worst straight on, did something about the prognosis and have come out the other side. I'm qute sure that you'll apply the same tenacity and positivity to this senario.

    You have many friends on here that will glady hold your virtual hand, through whatever you need to go through. But I'm sure that you already know that.

    But at the end of the day you have to wait a while, and that is sometimes the most painful thing to do. So virtual hugs to you. Stay strong, keep blogging and stay online, it'll help the time pass.

    2970 days ago
  • LINEY223
    I just hope you know chris that if you need support you will get it without question, judgment or hesitation from your team mates on here.

    I hope whatever it is that is your trial and tribulation at present passes as easily as possible and also that you have good friends/ family off line in the real world who can offer you love and support and practical help if that's is required.

    You know if you shout out either via a blog or personal email on here to people they will care for you and support you as best we can via a screen.

    Take care and good luck.

    2970 days ago
  • OPHELIA105
    2970 days ago
    have you heard the saying a watched pot never boils?it is true you know it will seem longer in coming if you keep dwelling on can´t change the outcome either way or can you?if you can do it if not try and get your mind on other things how ever hard it may be.there is a prayer that i love which is also true and might help.god grant me the courage to change the things i can change,the patience to accept the things i can´t change and the wisdom to know the differance.whatever the H is when you want to talk about it you have lots of spark friends here to support you.right now accepts are love and prayers that whetever it is comes out good.take care and keep smiling
    2970 days ago
    Chris, you alluded to "H" in your blog before this one. What's going on? Can you share? In any case, I hope that all will go well for you and you'll regain that motivation you had that led you to be MOD. Good luck and all my best!
    2970 days ago
  • ERIN4771
    hi chris...i am a bit confused, what is "h"hour? did i miss something? i feel like an awful spark friend being confused....please enlighten me so i can be of some support for you..
    2970 days ago
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