Reflections on Chapter 11 “Wake Up!”
This challenge was to pay attention to signs that would point us in the direction of passions or hidden desires that we may have suppressed or forgotten. I tend to have the opposite problem: I pay *too much* attention to the myriad of desires and passions I have and indulge myself in
Every. Single. One.
Consequently, I lack focus and balance. I am into everything. I love life. I love *my* life. I love to learn. I love to read and explore and dabble. So I end up with too many projects and not enough time. I get “A” for effort but fail at consistency and follow through.
Of course, I know this about myself and try to be kind and patient, but.
(There’s always a “but,” isn’t there?)
But I have a damn-ass good time doing it! Who doesn’t want to keep playing outside even when it gets dark and you know you have to go home?
There’s another “but” in there, too.
But wouldn’t it be NICE if I could just focus on one thing at a time and actually finish what I started? Oh dear, this is getting into some very *sensitive* territory. What I am trying to politely tell myself is that I have sabotaged myself with a very important project and it’s time to take some action. In truth, I have been sitting in denial for MONTHS about something and it’s all coming to a head right NOW.
Now what, dear self? Oh, the silence is deafening.
Have courage. Be honest. Lean into the shame you are feeling.
I guess I have to make some changes. Such as cutting down on my fun time and spending some of that precious time working on my project?
Accept that I have to disappoint people and say no to spending time with them in order to work on my project?
Yes, that. And more.
Involve those people and ask them for help to keep you on track?
M-hmmm. What else?
Publicly proclaim my sincere intention in working through this block to a wonderful community of Sparkies who will completely understand where I am coming from and who will most likely offer me some encouragement?
Yes! and yes! One more thing...
Wonderful! Now, go!