The clock is ticking, I feel like the Mad Hatter - How about a cup of tea?
This morning my husband accompanied me to the Total Care Program for Spinal Fusion - "designed to help reduce stress and get you on the road to recovery quicker and with less pain" per hospital brochure.
Ok. Perhaps informed is good. Yes, it is. But I think it raised my anxiety level about 50% or more. I know stuff, and don't know stuff. My question - if my doctor does not like recliners - I have no idea where I will sit/sleep. Plan B becomes Plan don't have a clue. I did meet another lady having back surgery the same day (same doctor) - much more complicated surgery than mine, and she is having a second surgery the following week.
Then there is the car. Yes, the red car. The second car, the one my son uses, that was my husbands, that was the cheapo bargain from Craig's list. It needs a transmission - I was thinking ok, used, perhaps under $700. Nope, no way. It will be about $1,300. Augh! See, we just replaced the radiator and the gas tank, so we can't just ditch the vehicle.
Then there is the van, still sitting in the driveway, that we figure may cost about $700. So, on top of getting ready for surgery, and juggling cars, I need to assess our financial situation to fix our transportation issues. My husband's solution - call the accountant to get the taxes done, before surgery. Augh! I have to pull the rest of the paperwork and make it presentable - before 2 p.m. tomorrow! And go to the allergist to boot.
Then there is my son's cell phone, the one that was mine that replaced his replacement that he dropped inconveniently in the commode at school. We have insurance on his phone, but it will still cost $50. I think he has literally worn out these phones. Then again, he is very hard on electronics. Oh, and HE is paying the $50. I just have to make arrangements to get the phone.
Yes, I think I will go make myself a cup of tea. and a light sandwich to go with it for my lunch, then I will tackle the balancing of the books.
morning pt stretches - just barely squeezed in 10 minutes
sleep - splotchy - definitely under 6 hours
eating - oh yeah, I need to remember to do that. I just ate a banana, and threw out most of my oatmeal this morning.
Relaxation - ON MY AGENDA (at least tonight - a dvd arrived in the mail - movie night for hubby and me)
Breathe in and out, and practice relaxation breathing to loosen the spasms in my neck and shoulders
Feed my body, drink my water.
Tackle one thing at a time.
Make a list - it relieves my mind
Although I feel like the Mad Hatter - I really am ok. It has not robbed my positivity - it has just kind of pushed me to the edge of overwhelmed.
De-cluttering? That may have to wait until Friday.
I am going to make like a FROG and hop in a teacup.
In an effort to de-stress - I went up in my studio to look out the window at the nearly snow-less yard.
While up there, I found Pumpkin, one of my two cats, under my drawing desk. As I talked with him, trying to get him to pose for a picture, he managed to side claw himself out from under the desk without getting up, making me giggle as he kept clawing himself closer to get closer to my coaxing and talking.
Then of course - I have a picture to prove the very nice dinner my sweetheart made for us last night. Yes, we had a glass of wine. I don't normally have any - can't remember the last time - an anniversary maybe last year?
Alright. I still feel crazy like a hatter, but a little less stressed for the moment to stop, blog and roll. Puts out the fire every time.