March... Off to a Kinda Rocky Start

Well, happy March 1st, Spark Friends!

I'm kind of torn on how "successful" I'd call my first day of this new month.

I had an 8:00 am doctor's appointment today... Since doctors are notoriously known for keeping people waiting, I figured I would be there a long time; thus, I planned ahead last night and prepped myself a protein-filled breakfast:

Breakfast Pizza Version #1 (Savory)
1 Trader Joe's Middle Eastern 100% Whole Wheat Flatbread
1/3 cup Egg Beaters, Southwestern Style
1/4 cup Trader Joe's Light Mozzarella shredded cheese
1/8 veggie and mushroom marinara sauce
3 slices Oscar Mayer Deli Fresh brown sugar baked ham
1/2 cup spinach
1 Tbsp. chopped onions

This pizza is super delicious, but I found myself really, really full after eating it. (It comes out to be around 270 calories, which isn't any bigger/smaller than my normal breakfast-- must've been all the protein)

Of course, I sat in the waiting room at the doctor's office for 2 hours; he saw me for exactly twelve minutes. Twelve minutes. Great... All I got was an increased dosage for my acid reflux, and I was late for my 10:30 class.

However, something positive did come out of my doctor's visit. The last several times I've visited him, my doctor has expressed great concern about my low weight. I keep promising him that I'll start seeing a counselor again. Well, today, he finally insisted, and today, I finally made the appointment. Not only did I make the appointment, but to my surprise, they had an opening today, during my break from class (I saw a counselor at Student Health on campus), so I followed through and went to my first counseling session since being discharged from my residential eating disorder treatment facility!

Much to my surprise, the counseling session went great! My counselor actually had a lot of knowledge about eating disorders, and we made a personal plan for me to start following through with. In fact, I have an appointment with an on-campus dietitian tomorrow! I'm scared but ready-- I have promised myself that I will do WHATEVER it takes to gain this weight back.

As you may know, today is also National Pancake Day. I have always LOVED, LOVED, LOVED pancakes, but my disorder has me a little scared of all the carbs, sugar, and calories in them. However, earlier this week I vowed I would go enjoy a free short stack of pancakes at IHOP, so I asked my roommate to go with me, and she said yes. Unfortunately, today she decided she wasn't in the mood for pancakes so we didn't go. Is it bad that I was kind of relieved? I know it is... I wish I could just enjoy food for what it is... fuel for my body... instead of looking at it in such a negative light all the time.

On the other hand...

Yesterday morning I tried to prepare myself for the planned IHOP meal that was supposed to happen today, so I tried to make a calorie-packed breakfast. Hence, breakfast pizza #2.

Breakfast Pizza #2 (Sweet)
Trader Joe's Middle Eastern 100% Whole Wheat Flat Bread
2 Tbsp. Skippy Natural Extra Chunky Peanut Butter
1/2 frozen banana, sliced
1/4 cup sugar free pancake syrup
5 raspberries
LOTS & LOTS of ground cinnamon

This pizza was also delicious, but be warned: SUPER sweet! I'm not used to eating such sweet, sugary things in the morning, so this had me on a bit of a "sugar high" for a few hours. However, the sticky, ooey, gooey pizza was TO DIE FOR! Warm bananas, melted peanut butter, chewy bread, sweet syrup. Hungry yet? Haha :)

Well that's all for now, Spark Friends.
Hope you started your March out on the right foot!

Let's all keep in mind: New month, New Motivation!

PS, wish me luck with the new dietitian tomorrow! I wonder what she'd think of all this breakfast pizza madness?