Failure is not an option so why do I keep choosing it?

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

I have failed all month. I am so angry with myself for not putting forth the effort needed to get healthy. I have a lot going on, but so does so many others. Why do I try to use it as an excuse? excuses are just allowing failure. I just got my tax return back and my family and I took a trip to the Mall of America. I gotten pictures taken with my kids at the pool and I was appalled at how big I looked! Why can't I just let this emotional pain go?! I just want to scream at myself. It's really weird to "feel" skinny inside, but know that I am not on the outside. It's like my insides do not match my outsides. Now, my husband is on a business trip for a week which is the longest we have been apart. My anxiety is really getting to me, but I have to find a way to manage this all and still be successful. I want to learn good coping skills so that I do not keep choosing to fail.
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    WOW! I feel skinny, but definitely do not look it! I am surprised, almost daily when I hold up a cute shirt that I think would be adorable, and put it on and it is too small.

    I used to have major anxiety attacks and panic attacks. I have taken medication off and on, and am on one now, more for depression than anxiety. I have a favorite Bible verse that helps me with my anxiety. Maybe it could help you?

    "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6 & 7

    Think of how much you will appreciate having him home when your husband returns!

    Was the Mall of America as awesome as it looks?

    Keep your head up. "Everyday is new with no mistakes in it." Anne Shirley, from Green Gables.

    3246 days ago
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