Failure is not an option so why do I keep choosing it?
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
I have failed all month. I am so angry with myself for not putting forth the effort needed to get healthy. I have a lot going on, but so does so many others. Why do I try to use it as an excuse? excuses are just allowing failure. I just got my tax return back and my family and I took a trip to the Mall of America. I gotten pictures taken with my kids at the pool and I was appalled at how big I looked! Why can't I just let this emotional pain go?! I just want to scream at myself. It's really weird to "feel" skinny inside, but know that I am not on the outside. It's like my insides do not match my outsides. Now, my husband is on a business trip for a week which is the longest we have been apart. My anxiety is really getting to me, but I have to find a way to manage this all and still be successful. I want to learn good coping skills so that I do not keep choosing to fail.