Will Keep Trying
Monday, February 28, 2011
Trying to get back on track.....AGAIN!!!
I am so embarrassed and ashamed at how bad I have been these last four months. About the only thing I have kept up on is my water intake. I now know that 8 glasses of water daily does NOT curb MY appetite!!
I TOTALLY went off track! It started with my ankle injury (was on crutches for a week). Then that started feeling better, and I injured my knee, ended up needing it drained. Between the injury's and the weather I went into a deep depression. I have had bouts of this before, but nothing like this. My family Dr (PCP) put me on a medicine called Celexa to help me through these things.....I wish I would have never started. After two months of it not helping she increased my dosage, and instead of helping it made everything worse. I actually would wake up and Cry!!! Anyone who knows me, know that this is not ME!! Told my PCP I had to get off of the stuff, so after weaning off in 6 days I was done. Thought this would make me better but it did not. I actually went into withdrawal from the medicine, having side effects like: anxiety, Depression, headaches, flu like symptoms, Exhaustion (lethargic), just to name a few!!
Talk about a whole lot of Crazy!!
Now I'm feeling a lot better (starting about two days ago). I have started back at the gym because I can finally get out of bed. Trying to watch what I eat again, and not suppress my pain with food, instead I will Try and work through it. Trying not to be embarrassed about this.....I have decided that I am going to start seeing a Therapist, in hopes that by talking through my issues I will not gorge myself with food. Because in the end food Does Not make me happier, in the end it makes me SO much worse!!
I now only want to look forward at a healthier happier Me!!