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Monday, February 28, 2011

Trying to get back on track.....AGAIN!!!
I am so embarrassed and ashamed at how bad I have been these last four months. About the only thing I have kept up on is my water intake. I now know that 8 glasses of water daily does NOT curb MY appetite!!
I TOTALLY went off track! It started with my ankle injury (was on crutches for a week). Then that started feeling better, and I injured my knee, ended up needing it drained. Between the injury's and the weather I went into a deep depression. I have had bouts of this before, but nothing like this. My family Dr (PCP) put me on a medicine called Celexa to help me through these things.....I wish I would have never started. After two months of it not helping she increased my dosage, and instead of helping it made everything worse. I actually would wake up and Cry!!! Anyone who knows me, know that this is not ME!! Told my PCP I had to get off of the stuff, so after weaning off in 6 days I was done. Thought this would make me better but it did not. I actually went into withdrawal from the medicine, having side effects like: anxiety, Depression, headaches, flu like symptoms, Exhaustion (lethargic), just to name a few!!
Talk about a whole lot of Crazy!!
Now I'm feeling a lot better (starting about two days ago). I have started back at the gym because I can finally get out of bed. Trying to watch what I eat again, and not suppress my pain with food, instead I will Try and work through it. Trying not to be embarrassed about this.....I have decided that I am going to start seeing a Therapist, in hopes that by talking through my issues I will not gorge myself with food. Because in the end food Does Not make me happier, in the end it makes me SO much worse!!
I now only want to look forward at a healthier happier Me!!
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    Some of those meds can make you wacky. I hope you feel better! An injury and issues with depression are both very tough to overcome, but you can do it!!!
    3274 days ago
    Good for you. Keep on trying sometimes is all we can do. Keep it up.
    3275 days ago
  • HOPE2011
    You are back on track and that's what matters. You never quit - good for you!

    You can do this!!
    3275 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Sending you caring days.
    So glad you are getting back into the path of healthy living.
    3275 days ago
    Coming back from an injury both physical and mental is double tuff. you've dug in and lost weight before, which shows you have the knowledge and commitment. With a little grit and determination you can do it again. GO FOR IT GIRL!! emoticon
    3275 days ago
    Being sidelined always stinks. I know you can do it! You were an inspiration to me when I first met you (at the doc's office) some time ago. You will do great!
    3275 days ago
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