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Monday, February 28, 2011

Trying to get back on track.....AGAIN!!!
I am so embarrassed and ashamed at how bad I have been these last four months. About the only thing I have kept up on is my water intake. I now know that 8 glasses of water daily does NOT curb MY appetite!!
I TOTALLY went off track! It started with my ankle injury (was on crutches for a week). Then that started feeling better, and I injured my knee, ended up needing it drained. Between the injury's and the weather I went into a deep depression. I have had bouts of this before, but nothing like this. My family Dr (PCP) put me on a medicine called Celexa to help me through these things.....I wish I would have never started. After two months of it not helping she increased my dosage, and instead of helping it made everything worse. I actually would wake up and Cry!!! Anyone who knows me, know that this is not ME!! Told my PCP I had to get off of the stuff, so after weaning off in 6 days I was done. Thought this would make me better but it did not. I actually went into withdrawal from the medicine, having side effects like: anxiety, Depression, headaches, flu like symptoms, Exhaustion (lethargic), just to name a few!!
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Talk about a whole lot of Crazy!!
Now I'm feeling a lot better (starting about two days ago). I have started back at the gym because I can finally get out of bed. Trying to watch what I eat again, and not suppress my pain with food, instead I will Try and work through it. Trying not to be embarrassed about this.....I have decided that I am going to start seeing a Therapist, in hopes that by talking through my issues I will not gorge myself with food. Because in the end food Does Not make me happier, in the end it makes me SO much worse!!
I now only want to look forward at a healthier happier Me!!
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  • ALLISONSMOM918
    Some of those meds can make you wacky. I hope you feel better! An injury and issues with depression are both very tough to overcome, but you can do it!!!
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    3274 days ago
  • RIVERDLC
    Good for you. Keep on trying sometimes is all we can do. Keep it up.
    3275 days ago
  • HOPE2011
    You are back on track and that's what matters. You never quit - good for you!

    You can do this!!
    3275 days ago
  • EGRAMMY
    emoticon emoticon Sending you caring days.
    So glad you are getting back into the path of healthy living.
    3275 days ago
  • T0PPDAWG
    Coming back from an injury both physical and mental is double tuff. you've dug in and lost weight before, which shows you have the knowledge and commitment. With a little grit and determination you can do it again. GO FOR IT GIRL!! emoticon
    3275 days ago
  • COOKSTER4EVER
    Being sidelined always stinks. I know you can do it! You were an inspiration to me when I first met you (at the doc's office) some time ago. You will do great!
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    3275 days ago
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