Reality Bites

Monday, February 21, 2011

I am flying to Florida tomorrow. I will be there less than 24 hours. I am going to attend the memorial service for my real-life guardian angel who passed away from breast cancer in December. Long story short, I was not able to go to her funeral.

I am so relieved that I will be able to celebrate her in the company of others who adored and cherished her as I did. There's no way I can describe how much I miss her everyday. I am sure her spirit is floating around me somewhere -- simply because I feel it. Call me crazy, but I still talk to her -- out loud (a benefit of living alone!). It helps. Once (so far), she answered loud and clear -- in a way that no one but me would recognize.

The grieving part overwhelms me. Because I didn't go to her funeral, I could almost convince myself that nothing has changed. Silly? Yes. I know. Tomorrow is going to make everything so undeniably real. I have to just let it come.

I can't be afraid to cry. It will free my mind of sorrowful thoughts.

And life goes on......
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  • YOMAMA128
    I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. These special guardian angels that go before us -- we miss them so!! It's great that you still feel a connection and that she reassured you.

    We're flying west a week tomorrow for a memorial for my husband's father. We're in a similar position, where the reality of it is still to be deeply felt. It's important to be with others who truly understand who you're missing.

    Life does go on... these losses are hard to bear. Take good care.

    emoticon Karen
    3555 days ago
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