Warning: I am about to get my "brag" on!
Today has been the BEST day! I can't explain why, but for some reason, today I was able to see myself for what I really am- incredibly underweight and unhealthy (Ok, let me clarify... this was not the "BEST" part of my day; in fact, facing this fact SUCKED, for lack of a better term!) However, I realize it was a blessing; I am now more motivated than ever to do whatever it takes to gain weight and get to a healthy place once again. It's gonna be long; it's gonna be hard; but I'm GONNA do it!!!!
Ok, now on to the real good parts of the day:
First, I found out got a 98% on my chemistry test (told you guys that peanut butter does the trick)!
Second, I made a DEEELICIOUS lunch. Here it is: my version of a "Greek Pizza". I've never been a big pizza eater- especially ever since I was diagnosed with an eating disorder (Oh, not to digress, but that story is coming up in a blog soon. It's time I'm really honest about my issues with food, but we'll save that for another day). Anyway, I was starting to run low on groceries and was forced to throw together what scraps I had to make a lunch; hence, the "pizza". I took a Mission Low Carb Fajita Tortilla and topped it with 1 Tbsp of black bean hummus. I sprinkled on 1/8 cup of feta cheese, a hearty handful of spinach, some grape tomatoes, chopped onions, and sliced cucumbers-- popped that bad boy in the oven for a mere 12ish minutes, and that's all there was to it. I rounded out the meal with some baby carrots and cucumber slices, which I paired with another small helping of the black bean hummus.
After lunch, I decided to run to the grocery store. I have always enjoyed grocery shopping but even more so now that I have discovered a little gem: Trader Joe's! I picked up some great things at the store: whole wheat pita breads, polenta, pomegranate seeds, raspberries, as well as two "challenge" meals for myself. (As I mentioned, pizza is a "fear food", as is macaroni & cheese, but I went ahead and bought one of each at TJ's!). *Oh, and a special note for KHDOESMK: Walking past the cheese aisle at the store made me think of you-- and I bought some part-skim mozzarella to replace the old fat-free crap I've been using!
Dinner rolled around, and I can thankfully say that I'm FINALLY about to finish off my turkey meatloaf (just one helping left!)
And here's the BEST part of the day:
Back in August or September, on a random grocery trip, I picked up a container of ice cream from the grocery store. When I purchased the dessert I told myself that it was a waste of money; that I would never actually allow myself to finish it (in fact, I joked with my roommate that it would probably still be in the freezer when our lease runs out in August). However, I can proudly say that I FINISHED that container of ice cream today. And best part: no guilt! (I even had a whole cup tonight, instead of the usual 1/2 cup serving that the label suggests as a serving size). Now I'm excited to get back to the grocery again to pick up more!
My favorite part of the day, though? The fact that I know my SparkFriends will be proud of me for today, and that you all will be here when times get tough :)