The Blues

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I woke up today feeling mad at myself about the day before, when a great day and diet turned into one step away from all out binging. There is bad food all around me, and I can't do anything about it-it's not mine. I grew up in an area of MN where hot dishes and meat and potatoes are the diet. I'm from a family of farmers, and it is cheap to make, easy to make, and feeds a lot of people. My grandma had to feed not only my grandpa, but all the people that worked for him. Of course, they were all skinny as rails, because they worked hard out in the fields all day. Some of the stuff is so good, though, so when it is made around the house, I have to admit, it is tough to give up. So yesterday was awesome, then last night I ended up eating donuts I don't like and didn't need. I was instantly mad at myself, and they made me nauseous anyway.
So I woke up groggy and cranky, looked outside on what was supposed to be a beautiful weather day here in MN, to see nothing but fog. I hate fog; it makes me claustrophobic. It just made my mood worse.
To top it off, I am not only fighting my mind today, but I am also trying to get rid of an awful caffeine habit. I'm trying to come off of pop slowly, and it just sucks. I can't believe how easy it is to get hooked on this crap. It's not diet pop, either. It's the icky, syrupy pop that I used to always hate, but have drank nothing but for the last few months.
What a day. But I've turned it around by eating a healthy breakfast, plans for a healthy lunch and supper, and I'm getting ready to go outside and shovel instead of hitting the treadmill to give my knee a rest. I know a lot of areas in MN can see grass, but alas, not here yet. And you know that hotdish? I'm going to attempt to find healthier ways to make some of them. Wish me luck.
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    I live in central MN and love hotdish. My family still makes it but uses less pasta or rice and more vegetables. I also like using cream soups to add flavor.
    2980 days ago
    Good Luck!! The best thing you can do is just forgive yesterday, leave it in the past, and move forward with healthy plans - which sounds like you already have in place. I grew up also with the meat and potatoes and hotdish. Add farmers in there and there is definitely beer also involved. I know exactly what you are talking about with addiction. I had a HORRIBLE addiction to redbull and I had a migraine for about 2 weeks and had lots of issues and moodiness but it all went away and it felt GREAT! So hang in there, you will get there! Yeah, this fog is a bummer. You can't see grass yet? Which part of MN are you from?
    2985 days ago
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    good luck!!!
    I think we all have those days - wrestling with what to not eat... but ya know? its over and there's nothing to do about what you ate so there really is no need to get mad at yourself. caffeine can be hard to kick - can you at least drink the diet version of what you drink? give up the sugar and then work on giving up the caffeine..
    you hit on one of the basic reasons for the whole obesity issue - many of us don't work so physically hard anymore -
    great idea to figure out a healthy lo-cal version of your hotdish.. keep the faith, with practice this all gets easier.
    2985 days ago
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