So I recognize this feeling.....
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
..........and this time, I am telling it no!!!
This is the point where I quite trying to lose weight. I don't know why, but I do it every time. Around 15lbs of weight loss, just when people are noticing, I stop. Now, mind you, my losing weight has nothing to do with other people noticing, but for some reason, something triggers me to shut down and give up on myself. I know the "diet gurus" would say it is because I am using my weight to build a wall around myself, or something along those lines. That very well may be true.
In my mind, it makes zero sense. To be starting a new journey with success, and then stop? Why? I can't say it has ever been easy. Maybe that is it. Maybe I just didn't think I was worth all the trouble.
Guess what, I was worth it then, and I am worth it now. I am not going to stop this battle, and a battle it is. It is a daily battle inside my head to get up and move and to pass of the foods that are not in line with what God intended for me to put in my mouth!
Satan knows my weak points, and he uses them to push me....yes he does. He knows my insecurities and he plays on them. I believe he is trying to get me to stumble...again. Only this time, he is not going to win. God is getting the glory here. I have to keep telling myself.... It is not God's will for me to be overweight.
So Praise God....because as I approach the 200 lbs mark, I don't ever want to be here again.
I AM WORTH THIS FIGHT......And GOD IS ON MY SIDE!!