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DRAMA..and what "I allowed" it to do to me...

Sunday, February 13, 2011

I hate drama. I mean really HATE drama. I think it is because my 9-5 job is FULL of drama. I am a family law paralegal and drama is my job. NOT my life.

So when it comes to drama in the work place, at home, with friends or even here on SP, I have little to NO tolerance. There is enough drama in real life, no need to "create" any.

Drama hit this past week. Now I will not blame the instigators of the drama, for it is not their fault how I reacted to it, although I would like to mumble under my breath about it for a while...lol, and I can only blame myself for how I reacted to it. I ate. I assume you guessed that already.

I weighed in Wednesday and had a maintain. I had hoped to squeak out a small loss, but no. Then the drama started. Needless stuff that brought to mind, "some things are better left unsaid," but it was out there none the less. I did my best to keep my 2 cents worth out of it all and I had plenty I wanted to say, none of it nice, but it would only have added to the drama and not at all worth it as it would not have resolved anything.

Now I also preach to my team to not weigh in more than once a week. I guess mostly because it messes with my head to watch that up and down, up and down stuff that is normal. And I weigh in every Wednesday morning, first thing, and buck naked. Then I go to Weight Watchers every Saturday morning, where for some strange reason, they require me to wear clothes!!! Imagine that!!

Now I knew going in Saturday morning, that due to what "I allowed" this drama to do to me, how I had been reacting to it, that this weigh in might not be pretty. And it wasn't. No, no, I am not going to give you the gory details of that #. But, I am going to tell you what I have done and will continue to do until Wednesday for the buck naked version.

I realized what I was doing in reaction to the drama. I realized it did not stop the drama - only added to my own very personal drama. I realized it didn't even make the drama better. I realized that those responsible for the drama were UNAFFECTED by what "I allowed" it to do to me. And it has STOPPED me in my tracks. I am ON track, I am TRACKING, better than ever, I am MOVING. And most importantly, I am putting the drama situation into perspective and closing the door on DRAMA.

And working my butt off to make my buck naked weigh in on Wednesday better that the clothed version and am hopeful for at least another "maintain"! If not, I will bite the bullet and FOCUS FORWARD!!

This is a NO DRAMA ZONE - do not be bringing me your baggage!!
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  • KARICHELLE
    Drama always seems to find me too. :\ And I have family members who create it, then claim to hate it, but I swear their lives would not be complete without it. LOL

    Glad you got yourself back on track! I am a "buck naked" weigh-in person at home too. But I have to wear clothes at Y-weight (LOL), and I wore shoes the first time so I have to continue to wear shoes. Lots of people take off their shoes though, and glasses, everything else. It's funny.

    BTW what do you think of the new Points Plus system? I'm trying WW to try to shake things up a little and see if I can get weight loss jumpstarted again. So far I like the PP system...and I really like that fruit is "free" now, and that the points allowed are higher.
    3467 days ago
  • DENAMARIE1
    So glad you are turning things around! AND that you realize that food does not change the drama! A realization I have had to make a time or two myself!!! Happy V-day!
    3469 days ago
  • BARBSDUCK
    So good that you can see the pattern around you, and step out of it! You ROCK, YOU BUCK-NAKED GAL!
    3469 days ago
  • NANABNANA11
    Jan, people that are sensitive and care about others, often find themselves in the middle of drama. The trick is in the learning how not to allow it to control our actions in a negative way. There are many of us that are walking this path with you. Glad you and your buck naked self are back on track! emoticon emoticon
    3470 days ago
  • HONEYBEE56
    I HATE Drama too!

    I have been known to fall into that horrible pit though, and once something is said or done, there's no erasing it! It's an awful thing to fall into drama. I also hate what it does to me as well as those whose lives I touch.

    I'm with you, I prefer a no drama zone as well!
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    3470 days ago
  • KAT573
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  • CHARLIE215
    Not sure what happened Jan, but great that you're getting back on track! Now get ready to emoticon everybody's butt :)
    3470 days ago
  • MONEYSTRETCHER
    I love this post.
    Sorry about your slight set back, but it is such a great and wonderful reminder for me. I hate drama to, but it has a tendency to find me. I know that I do not have to let it control me. I usually don't fall for it, but every now and then.

    I hope your Wednesday weigh in goes great.

    Thanks so much for sharing

    Sheila
    3470 days ago
  • JESSICAVZ1
    Congrats on getting refocused and back on track Jan!
    3470 days ago
  • FABAT402009
    Since I'm totally clueless about what's happening just wanted to say I love and Miss you!! :)

    Happy Valentine's Day and so happy you're back on track!! Pun intended!
    3470 days ago
  • BEACHGRLFL12
    I am so sorry about all the drama this week. Honestly did not think it would have created so much drama. I'm so glad you are back on track. Stay strong and your hard work will prevail! Have an awesome Sunday!
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    3470 days ago
  • KARENMOMOF2
    My mom used to tell me you can't change what people do, but you can change how you react to them. Wise words! I try to always remember them, but it is definitely hard sometimes.

    I have no doubt you are fully back on track and will continue to move forward in our journey!
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    3470 days ago
  • TENACIOUSTIGER
    good that your on track again, 2 steps back i step forward we can do it emoticon
    3470 days ago
  • JKTENTATIVE
    You know, it seems obvious, but it isn't...the realization that when we eat as a result of what someone else did to us - that they aren't impacted. Wouldn't it be great if when that happened, they gained the weight instead of us? It definitely seems like that would be fairer - right? Good for you for realizing that the only person hurt is you... and thank you for articulating it so elegantly in your blog. Soooo many of us have this problem. Seeing it in writing helps all of us.
    3470 days ago
  • DAKOTASMOMMY_07
    emoticon To YOU!!
    I hate drama as well..I think some people thrive on it.
    However its hard not to beat yourself up,after letting it get to you...And EATING EVERYTHING (which I have been guilty of) emoticon
    BUT YOU..Yes YOU are on track!! emoticon You have moved on..PRESSED FORWARD!! Why?? Because you are **YOU**..Not letting this keep you down shows strength.
    You know what this takes..And you will not SETTLE for less!!
    Keep tracking,and pressing forward!! Know your worth it. emoticon
    God Bless~Christina
    3470 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/13/2011 9:20:30 AM
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