DRAMA..and what "I allowed" it to do to me...
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I hate drama. I mean really HATE drama. I think it is because my 9-5 job is FULL of drama. I am a family law paralegal and drama is my job. NOT my life.
So when it comes to drama in the work place, at home, with friends or even here on SP, I have little to NO tolerance. There is enough drama in real life, no need to "create" any.
Drama hit this past week. Now I will not blame the instigators of the drama, for it is not their fault how I reacted to it, although I would like to mumble under my breath about it for a while...lol, and I can only blame myself for how I reacted to it. I ate. I assume you guessed that already.
I weighed in Wednesday and had a maintain. I had hoped to squeak out a small loss, but no. Then the drama started. Needless stuff that brought to mind, "some things are better left unsaid," but it was out there none the less. I did my best to keep my 2 cents worth out of it all and I had plenty I wanted to say, none of it nice, but it would only have added to the drama and not at all worth it as it would not have resolved anything.
Now I also preach to my team to not weigh in more than once a week. I guess mostly because it messes with my head to watch that up and down, up and down stuff that is normal. And I weigh in every Wednesday morning, first thing, and buck naked. Then I go to Weight Watchers every Saturday morning, where for some strange reason, they require me to wear clothes!!! Imagine that!!
Now I knew going in Saturday morning, that due to what "I allowed" this drama to do to me, how I had been reacting to it, that this weigh in might not be pretty. And it wasn't. No, no, I am not going to give you the gory details of that #. But, I am going to tell you what I have done and will continue to do until Wednesday for the buck naked version.
I realized what I was doing in reaction to the drama. I realized it did not stop the drama - only added to my own very personal drama. I realized it didn't even make the drama better. I realized that those responsible for the drama were UNAFFECTED by what "I allowed" it to do to me. And it has STOPPED me in my tracks. I am ON track, I am TRACKING, better than ever, I am MOVING. And most importantly, I am putting the drama situation into perspective and closing the door on DRAMA.
And working my butt off to make my buck naked weigh in on Wednesday better that the clothed version and am hopeful for at least another "maintain"! If not, I will bite the bullet and FOCUS FORWARD!!
This is a NO DRAMA ZONE - do not be bringing me your baggage!!