The beauty of the night sky......
Saturday, February 12, 2011
I should have been happy. My daughter had finally a full week of school; no delays and no snow days. I was able to attend my class on both days. I am blessed in so many ways, and yet I feel stressed and anxious. Why is it so hard to let go of worries and the "ifs" in our lives? I don't want to feel this way, but I do.
I don't know what brings it on, but every so often I start feeling anxious and overcome with anxiety. I don't like taking medications and so I am always looking for the "natural" treatment. I have been to my doctor because I thought that I was having a heart attack. I felt this terrible chest pressure and difficulty breathing. Well, all checked O.K. It was a panic attack. These last few days I have been feeling the same kind of pressure and heavy feeling on my chest. I hate when this happens.
Well, I have been feeling very anxious this past week and I am hoping for conquering this anxiety and stress through the participation in the stress busting program. I was anxious yesterday driving my daughter to the Special Olympics practice. Right now, she is doing snowshoeing. I volunteer too, so I have put my snowshoes on and worked with another child from the group. The practice takes place in the evening. The sky was clear and the air was crisp. And this little boy that I worked with gave me a great cardio workout. He kept me on my toes, but at one point he paused and started looking at the sky. So, I stopped and took a quick look too. Wow, how beautiful the sky looked. Thanks to this little boy and the benefits of exercise I started feeling better. I did not feel a bit anxious or stressed. I just wished for the feeling to stay with me.
Unfortunately, as soon as I got back into our car and started driving home with my daughter, the heavy feeling came back. It is with me today throughout the day. So far, I went on the stepper for 20 minutes. I am doing some deep breathing and watching funny stuff. I just wish I knew what brings the anxious feelings back. Well, at least I know that exercise helps.
Lord, I give you my worries and my stress. I pray and ask in Jesus' name to please heal my body and mind. Please, take away my worries and stress in my life. Give me the strength to handle it and deal with it. I thank you for hearing my prayer. Amen.