You can't make someone want you
Friday, February 11, 2011
I've been dealing with some boy problems lately. It's been distracting me from my normal happy life. I'm trying to put these guys behind me but it's hard. One of them (nickname: Dick Move) was a friend w/ benefits for almost a year. We were more than just FWB though. We were like a real couple except that he never wanted that with me. In fact, we ended things completely right after Thanksgiving 2010 when he met a girl that he DID want as a girlfriend. He has since become single again and tried to reconnect with me. I was so hurt by the whole "relationship" that I have been trying to push him away. The thing is, I don't really want him to go away. I want him to want me but I know he never will. And I'm not sure why I want that anyway because he is lacking some very important qualities (he is extremely shy in social settings aka wallflower and he lives about 2 1/2 hours away from me). Anyway, this is a rambling non-sensical blog. I was just listening to a song and the lyric (which is my title) really hit home with me. I've gone through my whole life trying to get guys to want me and they never do. For once, I need to just be happy with ME and realize that a guy would have to be an idiot to not want that. And I don't want to be with an idiot anyway, right? Right.