Wednesday, February 09, 2011
I just hit bottom. I´ve had a lot of stress lately, with the university, work, and loads of friends having birthdayparties that I had to go to. So I skipped SP. I thought I didn´t have the time, I´d manage anyways, and it was just for a short while. I also skipped exercise, I went like 2 or 3 times in that time. I ate really bad, cause I thought I didn´t have the time to cook properly. I got a huuuge appetite for sweets and stuff, and since I didn´t write anything down, I hardly noticed eating more and more.
Today I bought chips and chocolate. And I ate all of it. Now I´m feeling so sick I´d really like to throw up, but I can´t... :( This is it! Binge-eating! Stress! I have to learn to deal with it without eating crap and stop exercising!!
I´m really feeling crap right now, but at least I´m motivated to go on with it now... I washed the dishes and threw away the trash, so now there are no traces of the last few days of mindless eating. But I know it happened, and I´m not gonna let it get that far anymore!