Saturday, February 05, 2011
These are my last few days in Florence and I'm trying to fit everything in. Everything being not much really, except a dismembered family that is almost impossible to get together (ahhhhh, the beauty of in-fighting families). I'm trying to give more or less equal time to my father and my mother, but failing miserably. I've spent much more time with mum than dad and feel very guilty about it. Especially because I'd have preferred the other way around, but mum was ill so I tried to stay at hers most of the time.
I'm also trying to fit in two aunts who have just returned from the UK where they spent the last month looking after my cousin who had a baby the day before my birthday. And of course my sister who lives just out of Florence.
I can't wait to get back to London and have my own space back. At the same time I'm ridden with guilt and keep thinking that I really should stay here longer 'cos I didn't do enough for my mother who's ill; that I didn't spend enough time with my dad who, on the other hand, has always been available to ferry me around whenever I've been stuck; that I should have given my sister more time, as she's so stressed out that the other day she burst into tears, and maybe tonight I should go home with her after she finishes work, getting there around 11 pm, and coming back tomorrow morning which would mean a 5 o'clock rise. On the other hand I should also have dinner with my aunts before I go, and tonight I could see one of them, which I couldn't do if I went to my sister's.
I've just deleted the last two paragraphs I wrote 'cos they were full of moans and groans and I don't really want to dwell on that, more than I have already. Apologies for the downer blog!
So, the good news instead: the other day I texted Mr Gent to tell him much the same as what I wrote above, that I couldn't wait to get my own space back but at the same time I felt sad and guilt-ridden about leaving, and I wouldn't mind spending some time with him, sprawled on the sofa with a DVD and a nice cuddle.
Yesterday he texted back that he can stay at mine from Thursday night until Sunday morning and he also thought that sofa, DVDs and cuddles were a nice idea :)
He also asked me what I'd like as a belated birthday present! Panic, now I definitely have to get him something else, apart from the books I already got him here. I'll spend Thursday strolling around Crouch End to see what I can find, unless for some miracle I can see something else here in Florence.
Have a nice weekend everyone!