tired and sad
Saturday, February 05, 2011
well--at 3:30 this morning i woke up to flashing lights in the bedroom window. an ambulance and 3 squad cars were on the street out front. rob got up to see what was going on, but couldn't tell anything. just the vehicles and lights--no automobile wrecks. i couldn't fall back asleep because of all the flashing lights so i got up and made some tea. while drinking it i realized the emergency people were all in the house across the street. said some prayers for them and laid down on the sofa to drink my tea. finally managed to doze off, but about 4:30 i woke to see the funeral home people there, collecting someone. its so very sad. this couple are big time alchoholics-they stopped drinking, bought and refurbished the funny little house, got married on their back porch and had a cookout afterwards for all the neighbors and friends. i would see them outside every day, working on their little patch of hope--putting in a water garden, planting trees, tending their bird feeders. they seemed so content and peaceful. every once in awhile the lady would come over and look at our gardens and we would visit. she was so sweet and considerate--very fragile looking--the hard drinking and diabetes had clearly damaged her health. but then about 2 years ago, i started noticing they weren't outside anymore. they didn't walk across the street to visit, and eventually we no longer had our "hi how are ya" at the mailbox anymore. when i found out through a mutual friend that they were drinking again, i knew that this time would be the end of her. she had a stroke about a year ago but kept right on. they switched to beer from hard liquor, and thought that would be okay (go figure). she couldn't be left alone anymore because she fell all the time. there was always someone coming or going over there to keep an eye on her. through it all they kept right on drinking. now she is gone and he is alone. i pray for her peace and his comfort. its a scene that plays itself out over and over again all over the world. i hope she is free of her bondage now.