Friday, February 04, 2011
I am staying focused.. energy levels are booming still, and my motivation to push further is staying strong. My stress levels are sitting way higher than I'd like. I am constantly short tempered and snappy, I hate myself when I'm like this. I LOVE how I feel since I've been eating right and staying active, but the stress levels are out of control.. Not sure where it's coming from or why I can't seem to cotrol my emotioms. Here's hoping it's a detoxing side affects and will go away quickly lol
Still sportin' my SP nail art and I'm getting lots of comments and questions about it.. my shoe in to advertise and share my story to complete strangers! Feels GREAT! Oh yeah oh yeah AND I've completely over come my fear of being fat in public!! I have been working with an AWESOME woman who's been assisting me in my journey of shredding the extra person I'm carrying around. I have been working out in a PUBLIC park.. with people around.. and while the sun is still out hehe HUGE improvement for me because I've never wanted anybody to "see" me fat, in public rofl especially not working out.. not no mo folks! Though it still felt icky when some bone head little girls were laughing at me in the play ground while I was wroking my butt off!
I know they don't know any better, and *I* believe it should be inspiring to see one take control of their future by doing something about their health or weight..
Driving home from work 2 days ago, I passed a man who was at the bus stop doing push ups off the railing.. completely motivating! I screamed out my window "Great job, keep kicking ass dude", I got thumbs up *big old fat grin*. It was even more inspiring seeing as how he was already BEAUTIFUL, ripped from head to toe, damn near busting out of his tight lil muscle man shirt hehehe He got there somehow, right? HELL YEAH!
So there it is.. MY news..
BTW - I weigh in tomorrow and I'm prayin to God and wishing on every star that some weight has taken a hike! I have my whole speach telling my body that the extra visitors are no longer welcome and they need to get gone! Fat don't live here anymore!! We'll see how well trash talking the fat works rofl! If nothing else, it makes me feel better lol and visualing the fat litterally putting on their running shoes and getting the EFF off my thighs and ASS hehehe
Happy, healthy and safe weekends to everybody.. thats an order not a suggestion! Obey me damnit!! lol