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Super Bowl Sunday - Letter to Scott

Friday, February 04, 2011

Hi Scott... it's going to be Super Bowl Sunday again. I can't believe it will be three years since I last saw you! I remember every minute of that day: you BBQing platters of meat on your patio, the delicious potluck spread, and dozens of friends gathered in your living room watching the game on your brand-new HD TV.

Remember when you asked who everyone was cheering for, and every single one of us said "The Giants!"? Then you asked, "Are you actually rooting FOR the Giants, or is it more 'anyone is better than the Patriots'?" I still laugh telling this story: every one of us shouted... NOT the Patriots! You were in your element as host.

Most of all, I remember deciding to leave at half-time, because DH had to go to work at 4am, and we faced a long drive home. Plus, it was crowded; we'd give up our chairs, so more of your friends could sit down. I went to tell you, and you tucked me under your arm and pulled me against your chest, hugging me tight.

I still remember how that felt... and how we stood together hugging, talking, saying "see you soon." You said you'd come up and spend a whole Saturday with me as soon as you could, probably in a couple of weeks. I remember hugging you much longer than usual, feeling SO blessed and grateful to be your Mom!

We ended our conversation as we always did. I don't know if you said it first and I answered, or I said it first and you answered, and it doesn't matter. We'd say it either way, whatever came naturally... so "I love you" were our final words to each other that day. We hugged again, laughed and kissed, and I went home.

I don't know WHY thinking about and trying to plan for this year's Super Bowl is SO much harder than the last two years! Something is drawing these sad emotions out of me - I don't even feel motivated to try faking a party mood. I'm definitely going to watch the game, though - and think of you, Scott, with a smile!

So who are YOU rooting for this year, kiddo?! I'm thinking you'd choose the Packers, the rookie underdogs, over the know-it-all Steelers (I'll be cheering for Green Bay). Maybe you could swing by and give me a sign, a nudge, a bit of understanding about what's going on in my head this year?!

I MISS YOU, Scott!!!
Love always, Mom ~ emoticon

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    1568 days ago
    May all the loving memories of your handsome son Scott, comfort you in your sorrow.
    2190 days ago
    Awesome letter....
    2272 days ago
    You wrote such a wonderful and heartwarming blog about your son and your love for each other, I was blessed to read it. I'm so very sorry for your loss and I will keep you in my thoughts.

    I lost my only child, Adam, almost 6 years ago when he was 11 and the first years were very difficult but I found my way out of the whole with a lot of support from here and support from my grief family and I love life now. If you need support in any way, please feel free to send me a sparkmail or write on my page.

    I hope you have a great weekend and have enjoyed this challenge as much as I have. Peace and Blessings
    2672 days ago
    Elizabeth, you do know that Scott was influencial in My Packers Winning this year. Thanks for allowing me to share in this personal loving memory. You are a very strong lady and your Scott is by your side with you tucked under his arm, more often that you even know.
    3002 days ago
    Thanks so much for sharing this blog. My heart goes out to you. I lost a child myself but she was only 6 months old. You were blessed to have Scott. He seemed like a fine young man. Take care my friend.
    3009 days ago
  • CAZ5346
    Elizabeth, I came over to your page because you had left me a note,
    When I saw the heading Super Bowl of course I had to read that one first. Yay!! the Packers did win. My heart goes out to you for all you have gone through in your life. I hope you don't mind but I'd like to add you as
    a friend. emoticon
    3013 days ago
  • MINNA72
    reading this was hard. It made me cry. Maybe because I just watched your eulogy to Scott and was already quite emotional. Losing one of my kids is the biggest fear I have, so I cannot even begin to fathom the depth of your pain.

    Scott seemed like a really life-affirming, happy guy, centered around family and friends. And so handsome, too. The picture you painted of him in this letter to him was so vivid, so loving.

    Big hugs to you.
    3013 days ago
    Thanks for sharing so much of your life with us at Spark. All the best to you today and always.
    I read your blog and am so SORRY for your great loss of your son Scott.
    I saw the video on your discussion thread. It was a great and wonderful video for him. Whatever happened, it is so sad. You will be in my prayers and I will be thinking of you. I know you have an angel above now in heaven, watching over you and I am sure he is with you in your heart forever. My heart goes out to you.
    I know you miss him terribly. He sure seems like a wonderful and special son and it has to be very hard for you. Keep praying and keep sparking. We are all here for you. God bless you always!
    Big Hugs, Irish Ei emoticon
    3023 days ago
  • no profile photo MOTHER-NATURE
    Elizabeth your blog touched my heart so much ... thank you for sharing with us precious memories of Scott.


    3027 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your love with us. The two of you had a very special bond.
    3028 days ago
    That is so beautiful. I lost my sister almost three years ago and I miss her on different occassions. They say it gets easier, but I don't know. ...sending you a big HUG! emoticon
    3028 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your beautiful letter and your wonderful memories of Scott!! Praise the Lord for your strength and your faith through it all!!!
    Blessings and hugs,

    3028 days ago
    Beautiful letter Elizabeth emoticon
    3028 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. The thing I miss the most from my son are his bear hugs. As a matter of fact I had to teach my other kids how to give a good hug after my Joshua died. I'm so very sorry for your loss, your last time with your son is very memorable. emoticon
    3028 days ago
  • SHERRY666
    I really don't know what to say Elizabeth.......... I can feel you pain in your writing...... and you and Scott were so very close........ I can't say I understand what your going through....... I have never had to endure such a thing...... I just wish that you feel better about things..... and really enjoy the game...... knowing Scott is looking over you and enjoying it with you...... emoticon
    3028 days ago
  • NATALIE1964
    Dear Elizabeth, You write "I still remember how that felt..." And I know so much how you feel..The memories are so vivid and so real , and sooo precious.
    Sometimes I don't even realize my friend is gone.. Last night I watched the Barbra Walters Special with heart surgery survivers and I was so sad that my friend didn't have the chance to have surgery.. He died alone at his house in front of the computer.. I can't beleive he didn't see the warning signs..he din't have the chance to get treated..
    With the succes rate with heart surgery he would still be here..
    I miss him so , I too can still feel him hug me .. Mostly I beleive that like Scott, when the memories are so real , is because they are still with us... so close, just in another world where we can't see them but i beleive they're still huging us ... in their way..
    3028 days ago
    I've just been reading the earlier blogs.. and my... what sadness and pain you have endured! Words fail me. I'm so glad you maintain your faith in God even when life doesn't make sense!
    3029 days ago

    Such a beautiful letter to Scott. I hope you're aware that you've given the rest of us a little glimpse at his personality and character -- an open-hearted young man to whom people are drawn, a man who loves people and wants to share his people with each other and have them get to know each other. Do everything you can to make this coming Super Bowl a celebration of the last one you shared.

    3029 days ago
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