EMBRACE THE IMPOSSIBLE
Friday, February 04, 2011
Sometimes, when I share my story I'll get an occasional "Your young, it's easy or easier for you". Being an overweight child is the furthest thing from EASY. I didn't know or learn anything about health until I was 240lbs and I was sick of feeling the way I felt, so I on my own decided to gain knowledge on how I could turn my life around. Being an overweight child, I got bad habits installed in me very quickly. The constant teasing and harassment from the other kids at school hurt my already fragile and damaged self esteem. I already knew I was the "fat girl" did they really need to rub it in? I admired and envied girls that were smaller and prettier then me. My weight bothered people so much that the girls in my school came to school early one day to STEAL all the pictures I had taped up in my locker. they were thrown out and flushed down the toilet I later found out. I thought school was suppose to be a fun thing to be excited about. School was something I dreaded going to because, it wasn't a happy place for me. I struggled in gym class. It was challenging. I couldn't run the mile in the alotted time I was expected to. I had to deal with the embarssment of the physical testing day oh the DREADED ARM HANG! and PULLS UPS My hang time was half a second. People laughed at me and then applauded and cheered on the student with the best stats. Have you already assumed I was always picked last in gym class? That's an accurate assumption and because, nobody ever wanted me to be on their team I never got involved in any sports or activities. A big part of me wanted to because I saw the joy kids got from sports and clubs. Ribbons,trophies, proud parents. I hated how I looked. I HATED shopping. I was grateful that Lane Bryant had my size but it really bothered me that I couldn't find clothes for my age group. I was self conscious and thought I was trapped in this body. Losing weight is never an easy breeze for anyone. However, I think overtime when you start seeing results and get positive feedback it gets easier. It definitely got easier for me because, I used Sparkpeople for motivation, tips, and guidance. I reprogramed and changed my whole lifestyle and in the end finally learned how to listen to my body. When I first began my journey I'll tell you I wasn't confident with my plan. I didn't belive in myself. I thought it was IMPOSSIBLE to get the results I so badly wanted. It turns out I WAS WRONG. I decided I was going to EMBRACE what I thought was IMPOSSIBLE and just give it all I had. It's HARD. It takes TIME. The benefits by FAR outweigh all the challenges I had along the way. I was the only person holding me back from happiness. I'm confident now. I believe in myself now. Make the SACRIFICE of putting down the pizza, soda, donuts,chips,fast food,candy etc. I PROMISE those favorite treats will still be there after you find your inner happiness and from experience I can tell you "A cookie tastes so much better when I'm in my skinny jeans". It's empowering when I allow myself a little cheat now and then It's like HAHAH! cookie you thought you were going to control me forever and now I look and feel good and don't have to beat me myself up anymore! The Power is within every person! You have to want it bad! You have to plan! You have to get yourself through the tough days and figure out ways to make the following day better. I challenge you to EMBRACE THE IMPOSSIBLE in your life!