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Life is a Rollercoster

Friday, February 04, 2011

Some times you get the feeling that every time you get up from one crisis and start to walk, some one pulls the carpet from underneath you and you are down again.

I have gone through many phases like this is life, and learned it only helps to go through it taking it one day at a time.

The same applies to the current stretch in life.

Not only am I caught up in a protracted Management Change-over in the company I work for, but also my work permit is affected by it. And since the old company is not really making any money in Kenya, payments have not been regulare. So we have lived through months of uncertainty already. Now when the new boss started paying our salaries, it has become a bit easier, but thats when I realized that Inflation is really biting!
Over Christmas * New year i had to sit down and calculate my budget afresh. With so many things falling apart in my house (after my divorce I furnished with second-hand things) and my running shoes so worn out that they hurt my joints. I was already down, but then when I realized that my car is my single biggest expence and considering the cost of living I can't really afford it. I tried to see where I can save money, but I am already living as low-cost as possible and even trying to look for a cheaper house would not bring much. Cost for rent has gone up every where and even cheaper housing estates now cost almost as much as I pay now and the extra time I would spend on the road going to and from work would orevent any savings.

So I was really frustrated and kept on thinking, here I am with 24 years of work under my belt and not much to show for it. Also retirement is looming in 16 years from now. There is nto much in terms of pension here and you have to make your own provisions....

But as much as I was getting depressed I decided I was not going to give up!
I kept on walking, since my shoes are too worn out to run in them and somehow I will find the money to buy a new pair.

I have figured out a way in which it should be possible to pay teh car insurance in 2 months from now and I had a candid talk with the MD.

A salary increment is not posssible until the management change-over is finalized, but the Executive Director , to whom I was also able to talk a bit, has agreed to give me an allowance for use of mobile phone (we use prepaid cards) and fuel, which both are generous.

So the future is already looking brighter and some how I know I will manage to keep my car. This way I will be able to hang in there until the Management change-over is finalized and then negotiate for a pay rise. By that time they will have seen more of my work as well.

Lesson relearned from this: Don't give up! It's is okay to fall, but it is essential to get up and try to walk again!

Have a great weekend
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    Thasnk for all your sweet comments & thoughts.

    2635 days ago
    I am so happy to hear about the crack of sunlight that has entered your life and made it not so dark. I understand how depressing life can get. But you have persevered and found a way to make your life better. You have a whole community here with you to support you and help you. Never forget you are not alone! I hope that you have a great weekend!
    2637 days ago
    I hear you and I feel you. I've been going it one day at a time, treading lightly, for a long long time. Easy, carefree times are short-lived and learning how to really appreciate the truly wonderful days has probably saved my sanity.
    Hang in there, I'm with you, one day at a time.
    2637 days ago
    Glad to hear you're thinking positive about your future. People notice things like that about you when things are down and out and you hold things together. Try to walk to places when you can and invest in those shoes. I used to walk to the grocery store and back and to the laundry mat and back. You don't realize you can do it til you do it.
    2637 days ago
    I am glad you have found a way to work things out. Focus on the positive. And don't forget that I am right here if you need me.
    2638 days ago
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