Life is a Rollercoster
Friday, February 04, 2011
Some times you get the feeling that every time you get up from one crisis and start to walk, some one pulls the carpet from underneath you and you are down again.
I have gone through many phases like this is life, and learned it only helps to go through it taking it one day at a time.
The same applies to the current stretch in life.
Not only am I caught up in a protracted Management Change-over in the company I work for, but also my work permit is affected by it. And since the old company is not really making any money in Kenya, payments have not been regulare. So we have lived through months of uncertainty already. Now when the new boss started paying our salaries, it has become a bit easier, but thats when I realized that Inflation is really biting!
Over Christmas * New year i had to sit down and calculate my budget afresh. With so many things falling apart in my house (after my divorce I furnished with second-hand things) and my running shoes so worn out that they hurt my joints. I was already down, but then when I realized that my car is my single biggest expence and considering the cost of living I can't really afford it. I tried to see where I can save money, but I am already living as low-cost as possible and even trying to look for a cheaper house would not bring much. Cost for rent has gone up every where and even cheaper housing estates now cost almost as much as I pay now and the extra time I would spend on the road going to and from work would orevent any savings.
So I was really frustrated and kept on thinking, here I am with 24 years of work under my belt and not much to show for it. Also retirement is looming in 16 years from now. There is nto much in terms of pension here and you have to make your own provisions....
But as much as I was getting depressed I decided I was not going to give up!
I kept on walking, since my shoes are too worn out to run in them and somehow I will find the money to buy a new pair.
I have figured out a way in which it should be possible to pay teh car insurance in 2 months from now and I had a candid talk with the MD.
A salary increment is not posssible until the management change-over is finalized, but the Executive Director , to whom I was also able to talk a bit, has agreed to give me an allowance for use of mobile phone (we use prepaid cards) and fuel, which both are generous.
So the future is already looking brighter and some how I know I will manage to keep my car. This way I will be able to hang in there until the Management change-over is finalized and then negotiate for a pay rise. By that time they will have seen more of my work as well.
Lesson relearned from this: Don't give up! It's is okay to fall, but it is essential to get up and try to walk again!
Have a great weekend