Summoning the Energy Gods
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Hellooo!!!!! Here's to hoping the day finds you content, and able to freely move about without snow drifts cramping your winter style. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed, gentle Spark-folk. I have been working the life out of my mantras: Your best is always good enough; You can do anything for finite period of time; Mind over matter. I am about to embark on the journey of a thousand to-do notes. This is BIG. BIG stuff. I have been enlisted to single-handedly assist an immediate family member though a chronic illness. This involves, among other things, being empathetic to a fault, superhuman domestic diva-ness, and a rather large assortment of small children and pets. I have essentially agreed to cloister myself, in the June Cleaver style, for the love of family.
There are PRACTICAL concerns here. Things such as parenting styles, and lifestyles and the churchy-ness quotient. This is OK. Why? Because this is NOT about me. I will perform my perfunctory duties, with grace and a smile. I will sneak many coffee breaks. I will chuckle under my breath and let my frustrations out in nightly yoga practices and vent-sessions to my girlfriend. But I will do what I am there to do. And I will do it happily, and tell myself I am gaining valuable life-experience and motivation to continue to laugh at my parents when they question my biological clock and it's apparently non-functioning ticker and I WILL survive.
I can do this. I CAN. On a good day, I can do this. Now, I am still battling my own hormonal zip rides, and the debilitating fatigue that lingers when the dust settles. But, I have told myself, I am LUCKY to be as healthy as I am. I am LUCKY to be free and child-free, so that I might have the opportunity to make a significant difference in someone's life. And possibly, many little people's lives. Perhaps, even the life of a guinea pig. So, Go-go gadget selflessness badge. Let's get hectic!