rough days but hanging on
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
well--the saga of soda continues. a turn for the worse again and a bad decision by me culminated in a rush trip to the vet, a morphine injection and a nerve wracking day for all concerned. i do have to say i love both her vets--they are both so competent and caring, and were very understanding and forgiving about my poor judgement. she is okay right now--the trick now becomes keeping her on her drug regimen, which is a very powerful set of drugs that carry some significant risks, and keeping her QUIET as possible. soda has a very slow metabolism and i think she is still throwing off some of the effects of the morphine today. her back end seems to take on a mind of its own every once in awhile. i know when i returned from the vet yesterday i had a heck of a time getting her into the house. she weighs about 50 pounds and i had to carry her up the steps and into the house because she was so woozy she couldn't hold herself up on her legs. i very nearly dropped her at one point.
through it all i have to say thank heavens for spark people. it has given me something else to focus on and work at to keep me from obsessing and worrying about her so much. because of my fitness goals, i had things i had to do each day, and tracking my food meant that i stayed conscious and aware of what i was eating all the time.
and reading everyone's blogs and keeping up made me feel less alone in the house during the day. rob left work and met me at the vet, but afterward he went back and so i was by myself with her--watching and worrying until about 5 pm. fortunately she was sedated and didn't try to get up or move around too much. now its all just waiting and watching and hoping everything goes right from here on in. soda is such a sweet dog--she truly holds a piece of my heart and i would do anything to help her. i know the clock can't be stopped or turned back, and she is pretty elderly for her breed--so just making her comfortable and happy is my goal. hopefully we are back on track.