My Renewed Self-Motivation
Sunday, January 30, 2011
I think sometimes I resent the fact that I feel like I need to lose more weight. (I'm at 166 and my ultimate goal is 125-130.) It's silly really, because then I eat more than I should or exercise less than I should. I subsequently rationalize this by convincing myself that staying at this weight is perfectly fine.
But I need to remember - daily - that you can love and accept your body while simultaneously wanting it to be healthier and a lot more fit. Sometimes I almost feel like I'm selling out or something because I want to be thin - because society tells me I should be thin as a woman. But I need to separate myself from all of that and realize that this is ultimately about ME. It's about me being fit. Being able to run 5 miles without stopping. Being able to walk up 10 flights of stairs without getting out of breath. Being able to wear a bikini for the first time in my LIFE, and having thighs and arms and a stomach and bum that don't jiggle! It's about me having a cut, sexy, curvy body.
I'm more comfortable with myself than I've ever been, and that is wonderful, but it does NOT mean I should be complacent!
So here is what I am going to do. Last year when I had a healthy routine going on, it was mostly because I would map out exactly what I needed to do that day - and then I would just do it. I have a little virtual notepad, and a day would look something like this:
10am: Grapefruit + 1 cup of tea + 5 almonds
12pm: 1 egg + 2 egg white + 1 slice cheese on whole wheat roll
2pm: Treadmill jog & Ab workout, shower
3:30pm: Apple + 1 tbsp PB + 1 square dark chocolate
6pm: Salad w/ tomato, cuke, onion, 5 olives, 1/4 cup feta, balsamic vinegar
8:30pm: Berry smoothie
Here's the thing: I freaking LOVE food. And by doing this, I can look forward to the next time I'm going to eat, and eat it exactly then. By planning, I save myself tons of calories - because if it's not in the plan, I won't eat it. And here's the other thing: I'm totally lazy - unless I make a promise to myself and just keep it religiously. This is so simple really - I should have been doing it all along. But all I need to do now is get back in the habit. And it doesn't take too long to get back into a good habit. It just takes commitment and consistency.
If I lose 2 pounds per week, I will be at my goal weight of 130 by July.
If I lose 1 pound per week, I will be at my goal weight of 130 by November 1st, my 24th birthday.
So if I keep at this, if I work really hard, I will meet my goal - the goal I've been trying to reach for years - in 5-10 months.
And even if I fall short of my goal (because hey, I might be perfect as a muscular 145 pound woman - I guess we'll see!), at least I'll have made significant progress!
It's scary to think I could actually do it. But I HAVE to. I owe this to myself. And I want to be healthy for the rest of my life. I need to establish great habits NOW.
I also need to write more blog entries like this. I need to remind myself to stay motivated, and why I need to stay motivated. I also need to be on Sparkpeople a lot more. I do so much better with my goals when I have the support of this amazing community.....
Anywho, I hope you are all working toward your goals! Let's keep each other inspired and motivated! Let's rock this week! Let's rock February! Let's ROCK 2011!! :]