Ugh What's Wrong with Me?
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
For the past couple of days I have felt sort of out of sorts. I am having mysterious aches (not real pains by any means), irritating cravings, have been exhausted, and just don't feel like moving. It started yesterday during my customary non-cardio day cardio workout. I like to work out each day on the Kinect and I usually do Kickboxing. Yesterday I decided to try and something new and I was just not feeling it. I didn't have the energy or really the desire to go all the way through. So I figured well if its not broke then don't fix it so I went back to my kickboxing. I still just didn't want to do it so I figured well I had done enough for the day and it was a non-cardio day anyway so I stopped for the day. I ended up only burning 146 calories and was really disappointed but at the same time I don't want exercise to become a chore and something I hate.
So I went to bed kind of earlier than usual at about 10:30 and figured nothing about the day. Today I woke up and I wasn't in the best of moods but really I'm not a morning person so that's nothing new. My left knee was aching a bit but it was really just I don't know like phantom pains. It didn't hurt when I moved or walked or anything just a slight throbbing where it hurt before. I really didn't feel like I was hurt or injured so I kind of blew it off. I did my warm up kickboxing and headed out for Week 5 Day 2 which consisted of an 8 minute jog, 5 minute walk, and 8 minute jog. I was not feeling confident but I went out anyway. I was already feeling like my chest was tight and that I was tired even though there was no reason. I do not have asthma and never have so I know it was all in my head. When I started walking then my ankle started throbbing and that went away and it was my hip. For some reason my brain was causing issues with my body. Why there was no reason? I'm so irritated with the whole thing.
I felt like I was going to fall over during the first half of the first 8 minute run. I knew it was all in my head as all mysterious pains went away and I could tell my breathing was fine anytime I focused on my breathing. Today I did finally find out what they mean by second wind as the last half of the first run was much easier and I was able to catch my breath and relax even though I didn't stop running. I quickly recovered during the walk but was still intimidated by the second run. There was one point that I thought I was going to fall over because I just couldn't pick up my feet far enough and was taking shuffling steps. I just couldn't lengthen my stride. I just had to keep moving and not stop. I did make it and I felt great when I did.
I haven't felt any better all day even though I made it and was successful with this session. Usually when I come back I do some higher intensity kickboxing and end up working out for another forty minutes to an hour and burn at least 300 calories. Not today I just didn't want to. I haven't moved since I got home from my run. I don't want my running to turn into a chore or something I don't want to do. I want to run because I love it which is why for now I'm sticking with just 5K as my goal and not worrying about running any further. I wonder if maybe I'm just so worried about running straight and not having intervals or if there's something else wrong with me. Friday will be the first day that I have to run with no intervals. I know I have to get past this point before I'll ever be able to run in a race. I thought about repeating today's run until I feel more confident but I don't want fear to stop me from even trying. I don't know what's up with me but I think I'll accept my progress for today and go to bed early so I can get some rest.