My story, a little history
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
I felt the need to move this information from my main spark page into a blog. I'd like to focus on more positive quotes, messages, goal achievements etc on the front of my page.
Once upon a time I was in an unhappy marriage (1995-2003), stressed at work and at home...so I gained eh, around 30 lbs. I tried weight watchers with a friend and she lost all the weight. I wasn't sure what I was doing wrong. Then one day (2002) I decided to just eat an apple for breakfast instead of one of those drive thru fattening ideas. I joined a gym (2003) and worked out 3 days a week at 1-2 hour sessions after I made dinner, cleaned the kitchen, and put the kids to bed. I lost that weight in a healthy amount of time but didn't even know how much progress I really made until one day I went to buy jeans. I went down from a size 6 to a 2!! Later that fall my ex-husband and I separated. I got divorced and didn't have time for the gym anymore. For a while, I just didn't eat a lot so I was able to maintain the loss that way. Now I'm realize it's more than just eating to reach the kind of body I want. I know I needed to get back in the gym and I did. In the summer of 2008, I hit the gym 4-5 days a week, ate less (practically vegetarian) and I was down to probably 110 (I never bothered to weigh myself). I looked good, my skinny "goal" jeans even got big on me, and I LOVED the way I looked in a bikini. I want to get back there. I miss how strong I felt. It's empowering!
During that time I worked out 4-5 days a week alternating upper/lower body strength training with 20-25 mins of cardio. Right now I'm lucky to get in 2-3 days a week. I had started getting back in the gym just after New Years 2009 when the holidays made it very hard to continue the routine I started during the previous summer. 2009 has come and gone. I try to focus on eating clean like three square meals with appropriate portions and a couple of snacks in between (if I don't forget during my busy day). What changed in 2009 was that I ate more and I needed to increase my cardio to 30-40mins/day for all the extra eating I was doing. I want to bring out my poor scared muscles that are hiding under all the flabby fat haha. My GF, Rhi, enlightened me... for ME it's not about losing weight, it's about sculpting my body the way I want it to look. She's so right even tho the number on the scale still bugs me when it's not where I want it to be haha!
I struggle to keep motivation going. It has been hard to maintain. I have my high and low points. I'm working to get back on track. I'm a work in progress as we all are. It's a struggle for me to fit exercise in my busy daily life with two active teenagers. I want to live a long and healthy life for myself and the people I love. BALANCE is what I aim for. Everything in moderation, right?