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Before & Now Photos

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Last night I came across some pictures of me that I hadn't remembered being taken right before I started SP. What a shock! I knew at the time I was at my heaviest weight ever, but it's weird how we don't see ourselves how we are. I remember seeing those pictures at the time and thinking "How disgusting!" but I put it right out of my mind. I didn't want to think about how heavy I was getting, and I for sure didn't want to diet because every time I did I just gained more weight back.

A few days ago I had my husband take some pictures of me with my biggest pants on to show how much weight I've lost. That was a shock to me too. It's weird how you just get used to yourself whatever weight you are. I see the scale going down, but it didn't click in my head how much weight I've lost until I tried on those pants and saw those pictures of me so heavy.

Unfortunately, it is kind of messing with my head. I'm proud of myself for making it this far. I have never lost more than 20 lbs before gaining it all back and more. Now I'm scared. What's going to happen if my depression kicks in and I gain it all back? Will I be able to stop the gain? I sure hope so. I know the one thing that has helped me more than anything else ever has is tracking my food. I've been on WW several times and tracked food then too, but it was different. They use points so that you don't have to think about calories, but for me understanding the calories has made all the difference.

I think I just needed to put this in writing and think it all out. I'm not going to let this mess up my progress. That's why I call these my "Now" photos. Someday they are going to be my "before" pictures too.
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  • JIBBIE49
    1137 days ago
    Someone needs to go shopping for some new clothes! How exciting Connie and encouraging! Keep it up see how far you can really go this time and remember its helping all of us too!!!! Love ya emoticon
    2634 days ago
    Oh, my heart, how precious you are to me. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, be assured they actually do help others. I know I have to get on the stick too.
    You working out will continue to help your progress too and your depression. It'll chase it away.
    See you soon!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon
    2639 days ago
    Mom this is amazing!!! I guess I just get used to you looking however you look too. I knew you looked good, but I didn't realize how much different it is! You look totally different!! I'm SO proud of you!! And this time it's for good!
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    2640 days ago
  • DRB13_1
    You're making great progress and should be proud!
    Imagine yourself in 6 months and live each day at a time - don't stress about tomorrow, just know you'll be that much closer to your goals! emoticon emoticon
    2641 days ago
    You look great. Having gone through Depression, you probably can recognize the signs before you become depressed. When you recognize the signs, and they are different for everyone, you will be able to get help or make changes before you get to low. I have a tendancy that way and did have to take medications at one time. I now know when stress is leading me that direction and make changes that help me from sinking to low. You can do this too! Exercise really helps me from getting too low!
    2641 days ago
  • DOODIE59
    You look great! You do not have to be all the way to goal to look completely different. Congratulations on your effort. I don't know anything about depression, but I do know that walking and other exercise can lessen the impact.

    Best wishes on your path to better health. emoticon emoticon
    2641 days ago
    I think the fear is normal, but you can deal with it using scripture or affirmations. You are not likely to get depressed while eating more healthfully. I'll be thinking positive thoughts and prayers for you!
    2641 days ago
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