Its not a choice anymore

Monday, January 24, 2011

Here I am in the New Year of 2011, realizing that losing the weight is not a choise I have anymore. The reason is, in September, actually while I was following the Spark guidelines quite faithfully, I developed a nasty condition called LPR or Laryngial-Pharyingial Reflux. It is a cousin of GERD or Gastro Esophageal Reflux Disease. I blame it on an oral medication (an antifungal med) which got my "gut" all out of wack lets just say. I began having a pain in the base of my throat about at voicebox level and it began to hurt to sing or even talk. It also was giving me swallowing problems. I don't know what was scarier, trouble swallowing or beginning to realize this might effect my abiltiy to sing. Singing is one of the biggest joys in life that I have and something I can say I'm half way decent at. I sing for church and lots of weddings- which i love to do, especially for close friends and family.
I went on the medication, Prilosec suggested by my family doc but it didn't help much. Over Christmas, I hosted two family Christmas parties, had all three of my sons home, which was wonderful and had house guests besides most of the time. It was difficult to eat the way I was supposed to be and I convinced myself that it really wouldn't help anyway.
Through the holidays the problem only got worse with lots of talking with company and singing at church. I finally had a scope done and was diagnosed with esophagitis. The next week,. the day of Christmas Eve, I saw an ENT and he scoped my vocal cords. I had alot of swelling around my larynx caused from acid reflux which had gotten up that high into my throat and basically burned my larynx. He said I had a bad stomach valve and I would need to take 4 times the amount of Prilosec than I was on. Apparently this type of reflux need much more medication to heal because the lining of the larynx does not have the protective cells like the esophagus does. His instructions were, -lose weight, no caffiene and NO SINGING! Not much else was said. Do you know how hard it is not to be able to sing during the Christmas season?!
Well, once again it was Christmas, another words I didn't drink pop and not much coffee but I did partake in chocolate and ate in the evening before bed which in the mean time I found out is a big no, no. I didn't think it would make alot of difference. In the mean time, I lost all focus on my Spark plan and gained 5 pounds- eating what I was cooking for everyone else of course! (I felt like I lived in the kitchen for 3 weeks, fun, but not good for me).
So, finally on Jan 2nd, after we took the last son to the airport, I returned home and looked at all the junk food that was left that had contributed to my weight gain. My throat hurt so bad and felt like it was going to swell shut! At that moment, I realized that I didn't have a choice anymore whether I was going to lose the weight. It had been decided for me by the LPR. In a way I think maybe the Lord was speaking to me and saying-"How long are you going to mess around with the body I have given you? I'm not going to give you a choice anymore. If you want to ever sing again, you will be very faithful to the reflux no, no's and finally lose the weight and keep it off." I know He wants only what is good for me and want me to be happy.
So, I threw out all the leftover holiday stuff and made a promise to the Lord and myself that I would do everything possible to recover from LPR so that I can return to health and sing His praises once again.
I am following the Spark meal plans, doing the 28 Day boot camp challenge and also 30 to 40 minutes cardio 5 days a week. I have not had any of the reflux no no's and do not eat for 3 hours before bed and we have our bed jacked up 6inches, which looks hilarious. Bless my DH for doing this for me and being so understanding. He said, "Whatever it takes so you can sing again, hun." I'm so blessed that he is willing to slide down the bed at night just for my health!
I am happy to say that I have lost the Holiday weight and I know that I will meet my weight loss goals because, I DON"T HAVE A CHOICE ANYMORE!"
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