Accomplishments and Understandings
Saturday, January 22, 2011
So today I accomplished a wonderful thing. I completed week 4 of the C25K. Now week 4 is not too far but for me it was a mental and physical accomplishment. After having quit before due to knee pain at week 3 this week was a bit intimidating for me. Not only was it new territory I had a worry that I would starting hurting again and not be able to make it through. So as I set out on Monday I was half afraid I wouldn't make and half determined to succeed no matter what. Thankfully the determined half is stronger than the fear I had. I made it through without stopping once. It always amazes me when I'm done running how easy it seemed now that I'm done. Of course when I'm running I try to keep my mind on other things. Although I did realize today that I would not be able to run with a partner and have a conversation. I don't feel like I'm dying for breath but I definitely could not talk to someone and run. Hmm I wonder if that comes with time or if I'm doing something wrong? Probably just comes with time. Anyway Monday will be the start of week 5 and I will have all 5 minute runs. I've already ran for 5 minutes straight so I'm not too worried about it. I'm a little worried about Friday when there will be no walking at all but I'm also excited because it will be the first time I've gone for just a "run" without any intervals. Well that's my accomplishment.
Now for the understandings. Yesterday I was down because I felt like I had failed my mom since she hasn't been getting all her calories or doing all her cardio. I had to come to the understanding that what I can do at 35 is different from what she can do at 51. What I can do and focus on being unemployed is different from what she can do working all day in a very stressful job. I am very proud of my mom and how she's doing with the water and the fact that she turned down a brownie which is her favorite. I did talk to her about it and I told her that I want her to be successful and that I will be there to encourage her but I had to separate our journeys and focus on what was best for me and allow her to focus on what's best for her. I felt much better after talking to her.
So there you have it today I accomplished a goal and grew emotionally.