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I'm a control freak.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Yep, it's official I am a control freak. A few things happened today that kind of concreted it in my mind. One was a fight I had with my boyfriend this morning about chores and responsibilities. I am so wired into my schedule of how I do things and how I like things that when things are pushed aside it sets me off SO badly. I get so aggravated and angry and it's not right. Just because I can get 400 things done in the two hours before work doesn't mean everyone else has that ability. Not everyone works that way and I really need to start realizing that.

Second is, I have been SO good this week. All 7 days I have tracked like a maniac and kept myself at the low end of my calorie intake. I've even counted the two tbsp of creamer that I usually don't count but I did. And today I had a doctor's appt to see if my Epstein bar was back. So I knew she'd send me for lab work and you can't eat before lab work and don't have time to come back another day. So I went to the gym and ran for 45 minutes then did my strength training. I came home and packed myself lunch like a ten year old lol. I packed a chicken and spinach wrap with a light string cheese, an apple, and a smoothie of just banana and strawberries. I figured a heavier lunch was okay since I didn't have breakfast. So like a kid, after I got my bloodwork I DEVOURED my lunch in the car and I realized wow, how many people would actually pack a lunch for a doctors visit? But you'd be surprised how much I do that on my days off where I'm going to the mall or shopping or even to my Moms and I'll pack a snack bag so that I don't get hungry. For me keeping my appetite in check keeps me from bingeing and eating too much or the wrong things. It's MY big secret. Always be prepared.

So today I was making my tomato sauce and it came out grand. I just put the eggplant in the oven so I'll let everyone know how it is. Today my mom stopped by on her way home from work and I knew I just KNEW she'd want to go out to eat. And when she said it, I said I would go but not eat and she just kept saying "keep the eggplant for tomorrow and get something". Thankfully we went to Panera bread but I just felt so guilty I'd been so good and the day BEFORE a weigh in I am going to do this? But Panera is great and has the calories on their menu. So I got the half portion of the asian sesame salad and a cup of their new all natural chicken noodle soup. And being the OCD control freak I am, I only ate the lettuce in the salad and drank the broth and ate the chicken but not the noodles in the soup. I love my mom so sometimes I have to just go with it and do what I can to keep it healthy. I only ate so little because I know when this eggplant is done I want a piece. This recipe is all natural with no canned sauce, no salt, and no breading. I added only basil and garlic to the sauce. So even when I calculated everything into my sparkpeople calorie counter I am only at 940 for the day. I know it's bad to eat under 1200 ESPECIALLY since today I worked out but I also cleaned the house like a madwoman, scrubbing on my hands and knees and working up a sweat so I know I need to fuel for today. I just hope my tummy trouble of not being able to go doesn't effect my weigh in.

So I'm gonna go cuz for some reason my back is killing me. But I have a HUGE long day tomorrow and start my class at college that will enable me to get into the Ultrasound program. So I'm out of the house from 10-8 all day with school and work. So I plan on packing a nice lunch of probably a chicken wrap again with a string cheese and apple. And my snacks will be an orange (or 2), another apple, and possibly some yogurt or cantelope. I will pack it tonight so I'll decide. Now I'm going to go input tomorrows meals into my nutrition tracker. Here's to hoping my weigh in tomorrow is a positive one!
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    ,,,but such a LOVELY control freak!
    3009 days ago
  • VIXEN2188
    Looks like your doing great! I hate getting derailed also. It's a major pain when we can't get what we want but I have learned some self control as well. Great job on tracking diligently!
    3009 days ago
    I got hungry again reading your blog. It's great that youre always prepared with healthy snacks. Great tip.
    3010 days ago
    lol we all have out issue, but you make yours work for you!!
    plan plan is my weakness! and yes my hubby has 36 hours in his day, I always feel I only have 3 and can't get anything done.
    3010 days ago
  • SILLYHP1953
    Yes, I agree you are in control...but it's sure better than the other end of the spectrum! Your body does need those calories you're cutting out, might even be why your back is hurting. Muscles need a lot of nutrients when they work hard, but you know all this, I'm quite sure. Enjoy your class!
    3010 days ago
    Control Freaks are good!

    3010 days ago
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